| The Best Myspace Survey | |
| * . . About You . . * | |
| Eye Color:: | Blue-green |
| Hair Color:: | light brown |
| Height:: | 5'1" |
| Favorite Color:: | Blue & green |
| Screen Name:: | blukat8504 |
| Favorite Band:: | Vienna Teng... at the moment |
| Favorite Movie:: | too many... |
| Favorite Show:: | no idea |
| Your Car:: | lexus IS |
| Your Hometown:: | Durham, NC |
| Your Present Town:: | Grand Rapids, MI |
| Your Crushes First Name:: | Will |
| Your Grade:: | 15th... |
| Your Style:: | um... ?? |
| * . . Have You Ever . . * | |
| Sat on your rooftop?: | I wish |
| Kissed someone in the rain?: | yes. the pouring rain, actually. =) |
| Danced in a public place?: | yes |
| Smiled for no reason?: | regularly... |
| Laughed so hard you cried?: | yes |
| Peed your pants after age 8?: | oh probably. hehe. but its what all the cool kids do... |
| Written a song?: | yes, see the above. hehe |
| Sang to someone for no reason?: | well there's always a reason... =) |
| Performed on a stage?: | yes |
| Talked to someone you don't know?: | yes |
| Gone out of your way to befriend someone?: | yes |
| Made out in a theatre?: | yes |
| Gone roller skating since 8th grade?: | yes, last year in fact! |
| Been in love?: | yes |
| * . . Who was the last person to . . * | |
| Say HI to you?: | Kyla? |
| Tell you, I love you?: | Will |
| Kiss you?: | Will |
| Hug you?: | Cynthia |
| Tell you BYE?: | Kyla |
| Write you a note?: | Grace |
| Take your photo?: | hmmm... its been awhile |
| Call your cell phone?: | Will |
| Buy you something?: | Mom |
| Go with you to the movies?: | Will |
| Sing to you?: | Will |
| Write a poem about you?: | a poem about me? hmmm. I have no idea |
| Text message you?: | Sprint... |
| Touch you?: | Angela? |
| * . . What's the last . . * | |
| Time you laughed?: | a few minutes ago |
| Time you cried?: | maybe a week ago? |
| Movie you watched?: | Memoirs of a Geisha with my roommates |
| Joke you told?: | no idea. |
| Song you've sang?: | Momentum by Vienna Teng |
| Time you've looked at the clock?: | just now after reading this question |
| Drink you've had?: | i'm drinking hot chocolate that julie made me. =) |
| Number you've dialed?: | Will's |
| Book you've read?: | "what the Buddha taught" by Walpola |
| Food you've eaten?: | pasta with parmesian cheese |
| Flavor of gum chewed?: | um... mint? |
| Shoes you've worn?: | my black boots |
| Store you've been in?: | meijer |
| Thing you've said?: | "they could be on top in the back on the left side..." (I was telling Angela where her frozen dinners were. hehe) |
| * . . Can You . . * | |
| Write with both hands?: | I can barely read what I write with my right hand... no. |
| Whistle?: | yes |
| Blow a bubble?: | once in awhile |
| Roll your tounge in a circle?: | nope |
| Cross your eyes?: | no, but I can make them go in opposite directions.. hehe. its gross... |
| Touch your tounge to your nose?: | no. my tounge is stubby.... |
| Dance?: | yes |
| Gleek?: | gleek?? I've never heard this word... I must be old. |
| Stay up a whole night without sleep?: | yes. I do it often, its called "college" |
| Speak a different language?: | a little spanish. I can slowly read ancient Greek... |
| Impersonate someone?: | sometimes |
| Prank call people?: | no... I used to laugh too hard |
| Make a card pyramid?: | no. that would be cool though. |
| Cook anything?: | yesssss... I looove to cook. =) |
| * . . Finish The Line . . * | |
| If i were a ...: | writer |
| I wish ...: | I could fly |
| So many people don't know that ...: | there is hope. |
| I am ...: | most passionate about people and discerning truth in life |
| My heart is ...: | open |
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February 13, 2007
February 01, 2007
So I played this game that my best friend sent me...
And here it is. It's only slightly creepy....
IF LIFE WAS A MOVIE....
THIS WOULD BE MY SOUNDTRACK.
So, here's how it works
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and a lot of the songs fit with the setting
Opening Credits: "Whatever" - Live
(meh... i'm ok with that)
Waking Up: "Hungry" - Joy Williams
(I am never hungry in the mornings...)
First Day At School: "A Thousand Miles"-Vanessa Carlton
(maybe it fits somehow?)
Falling In Love: "I don't wanna live without your love"-Chicago
(aaaaw.... cute)
Fight Song: "Survivor"-Destiny's Child
(hahaha... I'm not sure how I feel about Destiny's Child being my... um.... posse? )
Breaking Up: "Stutter"-Joe Feat. Mystikal
(sure, why not)
Prom: "Moonligh Sonata Op. 27"-Beethoven
(hehe. Prom would have kicked some serious booty...)
Life: "The Authority Song"-Jimmy Eat World
(i'm not sure I even remember this song.... but what is itunes trying to say??)
Mental Breakdown: "Sway"- The Perishers
(nice!)
Driving: "Here We Go"-Grits
(I remember this song even less than the Jimmy Eat World one...)
Flashback: "Mi Mancherai (Il Postino)"-Josh Groban
(appropriate.)
Getting back together: "What Have you Been Doing lately" - Relient K
(hehe. yes.)
Wedding: "23" -Jimmy Eat World
(mmmm.. no, probably not, but is that a prediction of some kind??.... creepy!!)
Birth of Child: "She Will Be Loved"- Maroon 5
(and yes he/she will)
Final Battle: "You Rock my World" - Michael Jackson
(no, YOU rock my world)
Death Scene: "Goodbye Sky Harbor"-Jimmy Eat World (so many of these are Jimmy Eat World??)
(again, good choice.)
Funeral Song: "Scream" - Michael Jackson
( lol. well... I kinda hope not.)
End Credits: "Hotel Paper" - Michelle Branch
Hehe... well that was cute.
IF LIFE WAS A MOVIE....
THIS WOULD BE MY SOUNDTRACK.
So, here's how it works
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool... and a lot of the songs fit with the setting
Opening Credits: "Whatever" - Live
(meh... i'm ok with that)
Waking Up: "Hungry" - Joy Williams
(I am never hungry in the mornings...)
First Day At School: "A Thousand Miles"-Vanessa Carlton
(maybe it fits somehow?)
Falling In Love: "I don't wanna live without your love"-Chicago
(aaaaw.... cute)
Fight Song: "Survivor"-Destiny's Child
(hahaha... I'm not sure how I feel about Destiny's Child being my... um.... posse? )
Breaking Up: "Stutter"-Joe Feat. Mystikal
(sure, why not)
Prom: "Moonligh Sonata Op. 27"-Beethoven
(hehe. Prom would have kicked some serious booty...)
Life: "The Authority Song"-Jimmy Eat World
(i'm not sure I even remember this song.... but what is itunes trying to say??)
Mental Breakdown: "Sway"- The Perishers
(nice!)
Driving: "Here We Go"-Grits
(I remember this song even less than the Jimmy Eat World one...)
Flashback: "Mi Mancherai (Il Postino)"-Josh Groban
(appropriate.)
Getting back together: "What Have you Been Doing lately" - Relient K
(hehe. yes.)
Wedding: "23" -Jimmy Eat World
(mmmm.. no, probably not, but is that a prediction of some kind??.... creepy!!)
Birth of Child: "She Will Be Loved"- Maroon 5
(and yes he/she will)
Final Battle: "You Rock my World" - Michael Jackson
(no, YOU rock my world)
Death Scene: "Goodbye Sky Harbor"-Jimmy Eat World (so many of these are Jimmy Eat World??)
(again, good choice.)
Funeral Song: "Scream" - Michael Jackson
( lol. well... I kinda hope not.)
End Credits: "Hotel Paper" - Michelle Branch
Hehe... well that was cute.
November 07, 2006
Love is in the air...
Why is it that when you look at pictures of people kissing, it looks like they have no lips and/or they are eating eachother's faces?
...
Its an important question i'd like answered. And why are there so many pictures of people I know kissing anyways? You almost can't escape them if you're on a photo site...
But then again I'm a hypocrite for saying this.
At least I have lips in my kissy picture.
=P
*sigh* I should go write a paper or something.
But now I suppose I have to show that picture.
Here ya go!
Now I am like EVERYONE ELSE! hehehe
...
Its an important question i'd like answered. And why are there so many pictures of people I know kissing anyways? You almost can't escape them if you're on a photo site...
But then again I'm a hypocrite for saying this.
At least I have lips in my kissy picture.
=P
*sigh* I should go write a paper or something.
But now I suppose I have to show that picture.
Here ya go!
Now I am like EVERYONE ELSE! hehehe
November 04, 2006
2 Songs...
How i've felt for so many years....
She says it so well.
Momentum
Vienna Teng
Why am I walking barefoot
Upon this road with no one around
I close my eyes to this decision
The night's like coffee to my tongue
Like waking up without a sound
I map the words out
Maybe you will say them
Won't you help me rise up
Touch my face and watch me try to breathe again
Would you let me do this
Burn down the final wall
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, yeah
All I'm asking is to be alive
For once
Always I am mistaken
I look for love, I find a stone
Of all the seasons, winter befriends me
I come to you in friendship
And hold my breath against the snow
What are you thinking as I gaze into you
Forgive me the confusion
Forgive me as I realize my thoughts betrayed
You are the answer
Cry and smile the same
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome, yeah
All I'm asking is to be
All I'm asking is to be
Alive
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
(overcome me)
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
(overcome me)
Overcome
Overcome
Overcome
Overcome
All I'm asking is to be
Alive
"The Tower"
Vienna Teng
the one who survives by making the lives
of others worthwhile
she's coming apart
right before my eyes
the one who depends on the services she renders
to those who come knocking
she's seeing too clearly what she can't be
what understanding defies
she says I need not to need
or else a love with intuition
someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
but now I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in snow
she turns out the light anticipating night falling
tenderly around her
and watches the dusk
the words won't come
she carries the act so convincingly the fact is
sometimes she believes it
that she can be happy the way things are
be happy with the things she's done
reach out
but hold back
where is safety
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can change me
where is the one
the one
the one
reach out
but hold back
where is safety
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can save me
where is the one
the one
the one
She says it so well.
Momentum
Vienna Teng
Why am I walking barefoot
Upon this road with no one around
I close my eyes to this decision
The night's like coffee to my tongue
Like waking up without a sound
I map the words out
Maybe you will say them
Won't you help me rise up
Touch my face and watch me try to breathe again
Would you let me do this
Burn down the final wall
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, yeah
All I'm asking is to be alive
For once
Always I am mistaken
I look for love, I find a stone
Of all the seasons, winter befriends me
I come to you in friendship
And hold my breath against the snow
What are you thinking as I gaze into you
Forgive me the confusion
Forgive me as I realize my thoughts betrayed
You are the answer
Cry and smile the same
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome me, baby
Overcome, yeah
All I'm asking is to be
All I'm asking is to be
Alive
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
(overcome me)
Overcome me (overcome me baby), baby
(overcome me)
Overcome
Overcome
Overcome
Overcome
All I'm asking is to be
Alive
"The Tower"
Vienna Teng
the one who survives by making the lives
of others worthwhile
she's coming apart
right before my eyes
the one who depends on the services she renders
to those who come knocking
she's seeing too clearly what she can't be
what understanding defies
she says I need not to need
or else a love with intuition
someone who reaches out to my weakness and won't let go
I need not to need
I've always been the tower
but now I feel like I'm the flower trying to bloom in snow
she turns out the light anticipating night falling
tenderly around her
and watches the dusk
the words won't come
she carries the act so convincingly the fact is
sometimes she believes it
that she can be happy the way things are
be happy with the things she's done
reach out
but hold back
where is safety
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can change me
where is the one
the one
the one
reach out
but hold back
where is safety
reach out
and hold back
where is the one who can save me
where is the one
the one
the one
November 02, 2006
| myspace ♥ survey | |
| BASiC iNF0 | |
| name: | Laura (its pronounced Lara, not Lora. Now you know =P) |
| nicknames: | Kat, my last name, Big H, Lo-lye (my name in Cantonese) |
| age: | 20.84 |
| birthday: | 12.24.85 |
| location: | Michigan & Nebraska |
| school/grade: | 15th |
| backgrounds: | french, german, english, scotish, native american, etc... |
| siblings: | 1 sister |
| straight/bi/gay: | straight |
| job: | student |
| APPEARANCE | |
| hair color: | uuuuh... lightish.... |
| eye color: | blue & green in the middle |
| height: | 5'1" |
| ethnicity: | I already told you |
| label: | don't label me... =P |
| look like a celeb: | Will's mom said I look like Jennifer Love-Heiwitt... but I don't really see it. |
| dye your hair: | nope |
| have bangs: | Well I did, until my friends staged an intervention |
| have braces: | long time ago |
| wear glasses: | long time ago |
| wear contacts: | no |
| piercings: | only my ears |
| tattoos: | not currently.... |
| favorites | |
| color: | blue and green |
| movie: | urrrr...... thats hard |
| tv show: | ditto... |
| animal: | Wolves and Tucans... and those little rainforest tree frogs =) |
| food: | Chocolate! |
| drink: | pure fruit juice |
| alcoholic drink: | I dunno |
| car: | mine... |
| day of the week: | Friday! |
| season: | Summer |
| song: | Again, tough question |
| sport: | Figure Skating!! duh. |
| radio station: | I don't listen much... *blushes* |
| resturant: | mmmm... Marie Catrib's |
| teacher: | so far I like almost all of them |
| class: | World Religions and Theology 353 |
| holiday: | Christmas and Thanksgiving |
| quote: | "There is no charm equal to tenderness of heart" -Jane Austen |
| book: | A lot... The Accidental Tourist, Great Gatsby, Blue Like Jazz... I'm really not sure |
| magazine: | Paste |
| flower: | Roses and Violets |
| memory: | That night Will and I walked around Lake Zorinsky 2 summers ago. |
| tv channel: | TLC & the History Chanel |
| LAST | |
| person you hugged: | Cynthia |
| person you kissed: | Will |
| thing you said: | "oh hi!... I thought you were Cynthia" |
| thing you ate: | Choclate covered apples with my suite |
| imed: | I haven't been on in awhile.... |
| texted: | ? |
| you called: | Will |
| called you: | Will |
| person you saw: | Karen |
| you have a long convo with: | Will |
| FRiENDS | |
| prettiest: | Wittwer, Jackie and Kenzie =D |
| stupidest: | thats not nice! |
| smartest: | Will |
| best house: | ... |
| best car: | ... |
| best parents: | out of my friends? Will's |
| loudest: | Angela when she's on the phone. |
| funniest: | Wittwer |
| craziest: | Shannon |
| most shy: | me or Julie? |
| always has a boyfriend/girlfriend: | um... I'm not sure. |
| always has parties: | define "parties" |
| best girl friend: | Wittwer |
| best guy friend: | Will |
| known the longest: | mmm.... Nicole, then Wittwer and Jackie |
| known the shortest: | Grace |
| look up to the most: | look up? I don't know what that means... |
| opinionated: | TJ |
| athletic: | Devon |
| most likely to pass out drunk: | ? |
| to go streaking: | Cynthia |
| become a cop: | Shannon |
| become famous: | Will |
| kill someone: | Cynthia. she would also take and disect their liver |
| try to take over the world: | hmmm... probably Will and I combined |
| THiS 0R THAT | |
| summer or winter: | both |
| dog or cat: | cat |
| pepsi or coke: | COKE! |
| cellphone or ipod: | Cell phone |
| ocean or pool: | ocean |
| black or white: | black |
| chocolate or vanilla: | chocolate |
| flowers or candy: | flowers |
| rock or rap: | rock |
| tv or movie: | movie |
| aim or myspace: | aim |
| stars or hearts: | hearts |
| bracelet or necklace: | necklace |
| gold or silver: | silver |
| brunette or blonde: | blonde |
| kisses or hugs: | kisses |
| pen or pencil: | pen |
| lb or oc: | lb |
| iN THE PAST MONTH | |
| drank: | nope |
| smoked: | no |
| failed a test: | no |
| had sex: | nay, would that I had. haha |
| been home alone: | yep |
| stayed home from school: | hehehehe.. I mean.. no, of course not. |
| been to the mall: | yes |
| bought a book: | yes |
| been to a show/concert: | yes |
| yelled at someone: | no |
| got into a fight/argument: | no |
| cried to a friend: | yes |
| told the truth: | I hope so |
| told a lie: | probably |
| been out of state: | I live out of state |
| iN Y0UR R00M | |
| tv: | define "my room". technically they're all my rooms.... so yes. |
| your own phone: | yes |
| your own phone line: | yes |
| vcr: | yes |
| dvd player: | yes |
| radio: | yes |
| computer: | yes |
| posters: | yes |
| of what?: | Monet, french posters, more art posters & postcards, and a Vienna Teng poster |
| pictures: | yes |
| of who?: | only the cool kids... |
| RELATi0NSHiPS | |
| taken or single: | taken |
| got a crush: | well... its hard to say really.... hmmm.... yeah, I'd say so.. hehe. |
| name pleaseee: | William C. Anderson |
| how far have you gone: | hehe. this is just like playing truth in middle school. Far enough |
| how far do you want to go: | well duh... |
| last person you said i love you to: | Will |
| C0UNTD0WN | |
| 10 PE0PLE WH0 MEAN A L0T T0 Y0U | |
| 1::: | Mom |
| 2::: | Dad |
| 3::: | Anna |
| 4::: | Will |
| 5::: | Wittwer |
| 6::: | Jackie |
| 7::: | Angela |
| 8::: | Julie |
| 9::: | Grace |
| 10::: | Cynthia |
| 9 THiNGS Y0U L0VE | |
| 1::: | Will. |
| 2::: | The Sims! |
| 3::: | talking with my mom |
| 4::: | cooking |
| 5::: | roadtrips |
| 6::: | singing |
| 7::: | religion & philosophy |
| 8::: | getting to know people (in the real world) |
| 9::: | my fishies and my cats and dog |
| 8 THiNGS Y0U HATE | |
| 1::: | stubborn ignorance |
| 2::: | yelling |
| 3::: | violence |
| 4::: | arrogance |
| 5::: | confrontation |
| 6::: | manipulation |
| 7::: | shopping for jeans |
| 8::: | due dates... |
| 7 THiNGS Y0U CAN'T LIVE WiTH0UT | |
| 1::: | my friends and family |
| 2::: | God |
| 3::: | academic learning |
| 4::: | Will |
| 5::: | music |
| 6::: | my Mac |
| 7::: | good food |
| 6 THiNGS Y0U'RE WEARiNG RiGHT N0W | |
| 1::: | blue turtle-neck |
| 2::: | jeans |
| 3::: | socks |
| 4::: | underwear |
| 5::: | a ring |
| 6::: | a hair-band |
| 5 THiNGS Y0U'D RATHER BE D0iNG | |
| 1::: | playing piano |
| 2::: | taking to Will |
| 3::: | going to a show |
| 4::: | traveling the world |
| 5::: | writing the great american novel... |
| 4 0F Y0UR FAV0RiTE ST0RES | |
| 1::: | Ann Taylor Loft |
| 2::: | Whole Foods (sad I know, but I miss it *tear*) |
| 3::: | TJ Mack's |
| 4::: | Tuesday Morning |
| 3 THiNGS Y0U'D TAKE T0 A DESSERTED iSLAND | |
| 1::: | Will |
| 2::: | a towel (obviously) |
| 3::: | medicine |
| 2 0F Y0UR FAV0RiTE THiNGS | |
| 1::: | good food |
| 2::: | good friends |
| 1 PERS0N Y0U MiSS RiGHT N0W | |
| 1::: | Will |
| DiD Y0U... | |
| like the survey: | meh it was alright |
| wish it were over 5 minutes ago: | yeah... |
| lie about anything: | nope |
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October 29, 2006
It has to be worked out...
I look back at my life over the past few years, and I see that I am still naive in so many ways. I guess thats the important lesson about head knowledge and the heart--In order to fully understand something you have to free your heart from it.
But I thought I understood. I thought I knew exactly what not to do and think. Where did I go wrong?
I guess I just couldn't prepare myself for something so real that I couldn't possibly understand how it would affect me until I had it.
So now I learn what I forgot--What to do if all the perfect little plans I had for the future turn out to be a little too perfect. And, how to repair, re-evaluate, and grow into a more complete understanding.
But how...and why? Why couldn't it have been anything else?
Life is hard sometimes. Why couldn't I have learned it all in advance? I tried so hard...
I just say all this because i'm frustrated with myself.
~ ~ ~
I never considered the fact that I myself might in some way not be enough. That sounds a little arrogant... and that's probably accurate. I suppose thats the ego i've developed over the years. It comes from my past and the brokenness that characterized it.
If I were psycho-analyzed, i'm sure a councelor would tell me that my desire to be encouraging, serving, and loyal was there to begin with, but was abused by childhood family experiences, and that my future-planning is my security net of stability. Yeah, it makes sense even if I don't want it to.
What I want is to love people; specifically, to devote my energy to one person, and to be loved in return. What I assumed was that this would be a life-long process.
I realize now that this assumption is a contradiction to what my first desire is--to be selflessly devoted to one person, or, to truly love someone.
Both a councelor and my pride would tell me that it was selfish of my family to use me as a support during that troubling time.
But now that I think about it, I realize that they're wrong.
If my calling in life is to demonstrate love to people, then any selfish expectations that I place on them are only selfish, and have no place in my heart.
That helps a bit.
Its terrifying and painful to consider the fact that I may have to relinquish some of my desires in order to satisfy higher ones.
It is still my hope that my place will someday be... with another person. But I've got to stop thinking that way.
God give me strength to live up to these lofty ideals.
But I thought I understood. I thought I knew exactly what not to do and think. Where did I go wrong?
I guess I just couldn't prepare myself for something so real that I couldn't possibly understand how it would affect me until I had it.
So now I learn what I forgot--What to do if all the perfect little plans I had for the future turn out to be a little too perfect. And, how to repair, re-evaluate, and grow into a more complete understanding.
But how...and why? Why couldn't it have been anything else?
Life is hard sometimes. Why couldn't I have learned it all in advance? I tried so hard...
I just say all this because i'm frustrated with myself.
~ ~ ~
I never considered the fact that I myself might in some way not be enough. That sounds a little arrogant... and that's probably accurate. I suppose thats the ego i've developed over the years. It comes from my past and the brokenness that characterized it.
If I were psycho-analyzed, i'm sure a councelor would tell me that my desire to be encouraging, serving, and loyal was there to begin with, but was abused by childhood family experiences, and that my future-planning is my security net of stability. Yeah, it makes sense even if I don't want it to.
What I want is to love people; specifically, to devote my energy to one person, and to be loved in return. What I assumed was that this would be a life-long process.
I realize now that this assumption is a contradiction to what my first desire is--to be selflessly devoted to one person, or, to truly love someone.
Both a councelor and my pride would tell me that it was selfish of my family to use me as a support during that troubling time.
But now that I think about it, I realize that they're wrong.
If my calling in life is to demonstrate love to people, then any selfish expectations that I place on them are only selfish, and have no place in my heart.
That helps a bit.
Its terrifying and painful to consider the fact that I may have to relinquish some of my desires in order to satisfy higher ones.
It is still my hope that my place will someday be... with another person. But I've got to stop thinking that way.
God give me strength to live up to these lofty ideals.
October 11, 2006
Keep on Keepin' on...
Upon further consideration of my last post, I'd like to clarify something:
I don't really understand anything yet.
The world is simple and complicated, and I'm not convinced that any of it can be understood in a completely 'True' way.
The latest dilemma I've come across is a question of faith and conflicting worldviews.
If you are a theist, and you believe that the world is an open system that is acted upon by an outside force, then it is perfectly consistent to believe in a God who drives (or perhaps I'd rather say 'influences' and sustains) cause and effect in the world. It is perfectly consistent to attribute spirituality and seemingly impossible physical events to God.
However, If you are a naturalist, and you believe the physical world to be a closed system, then any experience that may seem unexplainable or spiritual in nature can always be explained by natural processes (if not now then in the future).
Therefore, the question ultimately becomes 'what worldview/set of assumptions seems more correct?' Where do you place your faith? For now I'll leave this question open-ended, as I really don't have a clear answer straightened out.
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Do we need religion to answer the "why?" question of life? That is the first question I need answered. I lay awake last night 'till around 3 thinking about the answer to that question.
Truthfully, I think the answer is 'no'. Generally speaking, I think (and correct me if I'm wrong) that religion does not give us a reason for our existence, or an explanation of why man exists. Or, at least, that is not its purpose. True religion does not serve us/our desires, it serves that which is beyond us. What it gives us is joy in the recognition of Beauty in the world.
I say this because there is no real explanation for why Beauty (capital B) exists. It exists for its own sake.
What is it that gives us "meaning" in our life? And what is "meaning" altogether?
I think thats all for now, but i'll be sure to keep on writing, and thinking about these things. Your suggestions & support are greatly appreciated. Please pray for me and my developing understanding.
I don't really understand anything yet.
The world is simple and complicated, and I'm not convinced that any of it can be understood in a completely 'True' way.
The latest dilemma I've come across is a question of faith and conflicting worldviews.
If you are a theist, and you believe that the world is an open system that is acted upon by an outside force, then it is perfectly consistent to believe in a God who drives (or perhaps I'd rather say 'influences' and sustains) cause and effect in the world. It is perfectly consistent to attribute spirituality and seemingly impossible physical events to God.
However, If you are a naturalist, and you believe the physical world to be a closed system, then any experience that may seem unexplainable or spiritual in nature can always be explained by natural processes (if not now then in the future).
Therefore, the question ultimately becomes 'what worldview/set of assumptions seems more correct?' Where do you place your faith? For now I'll leave this question open-ended, as I really don't have a clear answer straightened out.
~ ~ ~
Do we need religion to answer the "why?" question of life? That is the first question I need answered. I lay awake last night 'till around 3 thinking about the answer to that question.
Truthfully, I think the answer is 'no'. Generally speaking, I think (and correct me if I'm wrong) that religion does not give us a reason for our existence, or an explanation of why man exists. Or, at least, that is not its purpose. True religion does not serve us/our desires, it serves that which is beyond us. What it gives us is joy in the recognition of Beauty in the world.
I say this because there is no real explanation for why Beauty (capital B) exists. It exists for its own sake.
What is it that gives us "meaning" in our life? And what is "meaning" altogether?
I think thats all for now, but i'll be sure to keep on writing, and thinking about these things. Your suggestions & support are greatly appreciated. Please pray for me and my developing understanding.
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