Music of the Night

Hey there kids, *half smile*

Today was interesting. My new name is "the Lorax". That's right, be intimidated by the Lorax.

ack. I'm no longer in a silly mood. This is supposed to be the time of night where I usually get thoughtful/romantic/contemplative/Religious. Unfortunately, now that I have time to sit here and think, the thought that I keep having is that I am by myself again. Now don't get me wrong, i'm not depressed or trying to complain about my situation, it's just that when I sit here at night, I have to deal with memories and anxieties and other things that I don't normally have to deal with... Wow, it sounds like i'm trying to hide from something. The bad thing is that I don't know what that is.... Well... maybe I have an idea.

isn't it funny how confusion, conviction, and clarity can all seem like the same thing at times? Yes, I did just come up with that. *sigh* I just wish God would grant me love or grant me the power to turn it off my desire for it.

I will now continue to eat my popcorn and drink my last pop.
Goodnight guys.

If anyone gets bored enough, gimme a call...

God Bless

Desperately....

(Michelle Branch)

There's something 'bout the way
You looked at me
Made me think for a moment that
Maybe we were meant to be
Living our lives separately
And It's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately


Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately


You looked my way, you said "you frustrate me"
Like you're thinking of lines and times when you and I were you and me
You took our chance out on the street
Well you missed my chance and chances are
It won't be coming back to me


Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately
So desperately... ho


Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately
I want you so desperately, oo oo oo


I keep giving in,
But I should know better
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
So desperately
I want you so desperately

70's Wear

70's Wear
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We went roller skating tonight! It was an awesome time, and I got to skate with lots'a boys! lol... jk. Actually not LOTS, but we did get to meet some of the guys on 2nd Beets that have been hidden away all year. It was mostly just the girls though... yay for fun times! check out the pictures!

Love y'all
God Bless!

Meatballs?

Kyla: "I want my meatballs!"

Me: "Alright already! (to Ben whom i'm talking to on the phone): "I have to go, Kyla is demanding meatballs and I am the only one who can give them to her"

Talking to Myself...

It's taco tuesday in the dining hall! yippee!

Is there anyone out there who enjoys talking about theology? I'm having a hard time finding other people (especially boys for some reason) my age who actually enjoy having serious discussions about this stuff. Ben is the exception, and I think he knows it, but he lives at home and is busy like me. I was thinking about this today, and it makes me a little discouraged.... Here I am at a very strong Christian college, and I don't yet have a lot of friends that are interested in theology... *shrugs* I suppose i'm just not far enough along in my majors, or i'm not involved in enough activities or something... Still, it saddens me. I need a strong mentor, someone who understands the ideas I bring up and challenges me. Eventually I need this quality in a husband, but for now i'm looking for anyone who possesses this quality. *sigh* Please God? I get annoyed just listening to myself talk... And somtimes I annoy other people 'cause they don't know what i'm talking about...

I don't know what exactly the purpose for me writing all this is, but I will ask for your prayers.

I have a history test in 3 hours, so I'd better get back to studying.

You'll probably hear more from me later today!

This is a very simple song, but it is beautiful...

You Are Good
Jeff Deyo

Some would say that You cannot be found
And some would say that You are far away
But I know You're the God who lives in me
And I know You will always have my heart.

'Cause you are good
And Your love endures forever
You are good
And Your love endures forever
You are good
And Your love endures forever
You are good, you are good.

You are the only One
You are the One that I desire
You are the only One, my King.

'Cause you are good
And Your love endures forever
You are good
And Your love endures forever
You are good
And Your love endures forever
You are good, you are good.

I love you all!
God Bless!

Feeeeeeelings

I hate feelings... They are so confusing. =P

In light of my previous post, I would like to simply say screw emotions during exam time. Don't listen to a word I say during the days prior to exams.
I love you all and I miss ya.

I am going to go back to listening to Venga Boys "Boom Boom Boom Boom!" now.

Possibly the most amusing song I can think of.... besides Aqua "Barbie Girl". But that is Wittwer and I's song. hehehe.

Peace out

Hope... Here I am.

I believe
that love is the answer
I believe
that love will find a way

I am trying so hard. I am trying so hard to believe that it hurts. Sometimes though, I just get tired of fighting, and I fall into exhaustion.

I throw up my hands
oh the impossibilities
frustrated and tired
where do I go from here?
Now i'm searching for
the confidence
i've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles
is overcoming my fears

Never underestimate my Jesus
you're telling me that there's no hope
i'm telling you you're wrong
Never underestimate my Jesus
for when the world around you crumbles
He will be strong.

-Relient K

That is my honest prayer. When I am reduced to tears and helplessness again, I know that you are there and you are carrying me in your arms.