FIENDS!

Curses! We've been decieved!

To those trecherous coniving fiends who have aided in the decietful theft of the love sac:

You may think you have won, but you will not sleep soundly until it is returned to it's rightful owner. We know who you are and where you sleep... We also know the whereabouts of the love sac. We promise you much pain, anguish and unexplained phenomenons until it has been released from your lair. We also will not give into your demands of pizza and backrubs. The treasured fuzzy comfy pillow will also remain in our care until further negotiations have occured.

We threaten to do unmentionable girly things to said fuzzy comfy pillow if the love sac is not returned to us promptly.
Although we must admit that we are impressed that you have outwitted us at our own game, we will still show no mercy...

Signed,

The fearless girls of Veenstra

Talk?

*yawns*

What's up kids...

Happy Friday.. ur... Saturday or something. I should be sleeping right about now. Hanging out with crazy girls (I am not at all crazy of course) all night is awesome, but apparently my body isn't quite as young and energetic as it used to be at 2am... hmm... oh well. Writing is always easier for me late at night. I have more intelligent things to say... well... usually. They're mostly sad right now.

I think that for now, however, this is all I can think to write...

'night all

I love you

Remember

This is a beautiful song. It makes me cry though...

Remember When it Rained
(Josh Groban)

Wash away the thoughts inside
That keep my mind away from you
No more love and no more pride.
The thoughts are all I have to do.

Oooo..remember when it rained
Felt the ground and looked up high and called your name
Oooo...remember when it rained
In the darkness I remain

Tears of hope run down my skin
Tears for you that will not dry
They magnify the one within
Let the outside slowly die...

Oooo..remember when it rained
Felt the ground and looked up high and called your name
Oooo..remember when it rained
In the water I remain...running down.

Running down, running down
running down, running down,
running down, running down,

---Piano interlude---

ahhhhhhhh.....running down


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Bye Bye Love...

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... *sigh

Not so sure if that was a frustrated "oh" or an exhausted one.... or more likely i'm just sad. No Matter... Sorry to turn this into a whiny blog, but i'm completely drained/exhausted/dead/~insert descriptive adjective that will describe the way I feel~... Yes, even the optimistic one occasionally explores the dark side.

Don't really know what to say. TJ and I are over, and i'm devastated... even though I was the one to initiate the break-up. This will be the second time i've had to go through something like this. The first was still the worst, but I suppose that's to be expected. I used to believe, and quite humbly I might add, that I was pretty good at the girlfriend thing. I have been humbled. *sigh* I guess it just boils down to the fact that sometimes, even when you put everything you possibly can into something, it just doesn't work. This is especially hard for me to deal with. I realize that i'm just impatient and that my timing is not God's, so i'll wait here for Him to decide what the heck i'm supposed to do. But sometimes I just don't think I can do this again. Actually I thought that after I broke off my 2 year relationship with Ben, and now i'm just thinking it again. Will I actually not date? nah... I really want to get married someday. It's just gonna take ____ amount of time to find my husband.

Reality checks in again.

I really have to thank Kyla, Angela, Christy, Katie, Rachael, and my mommie for supporting me and supplying plenty of love, tissues and hugs. I love you guys. Also Ben for letting me call him and vent for about an hour... AND listening to me sing the "I hate men" song... THAT takes true tolerance... I don't know how much you actually talked, but I thank you for your patience. I love all of my friends. I am truly blessed to be surrounded by supportive loving people. TJ: I still care about you so much... I'm sorry things had to turn out this way... i'm praying for us both and I wish you well in the future.

And now.. to eat the ENTIRE box of belgian chocolates and listen to angry music... goodnight all.

...and maybe a tiny bit of emo *looks around* what?

"Polaris"
Jimmy Eat World

I'll say it straight and plain
I know I've made mistakes
I've always been afraid
I've always been afraid

A thousand nights or more
I travel east and north
Please answer the door

Can you tell me
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me

Get down on your knees
Whisper what I need
Something pretty
Something pretty

I feel that when I'm old
I'll look at you and know
The world was beautiful

Then you tell me...
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me

I'm done, there's nothing left to show
I try but can't let it go
Are you happy where you're standing still?
Do you really want the sugar pill?
I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll start
Tonight it feels so hard
As the train approaches Gare Du Nord
As I'm sure your kiss remains employed
Am I only dreaming?

You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me

When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me


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