Good Verses....


The Lord answered: "Could a mother forget a child who nurses at her breast? Could she fail to love an infant who came from her own body? Even if a mother could forget, I will never forget you. A picture of your city is drawn on my hand. You are always on my thoughts! Isaiah 49:15-16

The Lord doesn't hate or despise the helpless in all of their troubles. When I cried out, he listened and did not turn away. Psalm 22:24

Heart-shattered lives ready for love don't for a moment escape God's notice. Psalm 51:17

You can throw the whole weight of your anxieties upon him, for you are his personal concern. 1 Peter 5:7

Our holy God lives forever in the highest heavens, and this is what he says:
Though I live high above in the holy place, I am here to help those who are humble and depend only on me." Isaiah 57:15

The Lord your God is a merciful God; he will not abandon or destroy you or forget the covenant with your forefathers, which he confirmed to them by oath. Deuteronomy 4:31

The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms. He will drive out your enemy before you, saying, "Destroy him!" Deuteronomy 33:27

Though my father and mother forsake me, the Lord will recieve me. Psalm 27:10

Quiet down before God, be prayerful before Him. Don't bother with those who climbe the ladder, who elbow their way to the top. Psalm 37:7

"A thief is there only to steal and kill and destroy. I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of." John 10:10

You're the closest of all to me, God, and all your judgements are true. I've known all along from the evidence of your words that you meant them to last forever. Psalm 119:150-151

I am ready for anything through the strength of the One who lives within me. Phillipians 4:13

I praise you, Lord for being my guide. Even in the darkest night, your teachings fill my mind. I will always look to you, as you stand beside me and protect me from fear. Psalm 16:7-8

Ask me, and I will tell you things that you don't know and can't find out. Jeremiah 33:3

How can a young person have a clean life? By carefully reading the map of your Word. I'm single minded in pursuit of you; don't let me miss the road signs you've posted. I've banked your promises in the vault of my heart so I won't sin myself bankrupt. Psalm 119:9-11

"Don't you see that whatever goes INTO the mouth passes into the stomach and then out of the body altogether? But the things that come OUT of a man's mouth come from his heart and mind, and it is they that really make a man unclean. For it is from a man's mind that evil thoughts arise-- murder, adultry, lust, theft, perjury and slander. These are the things which make a man unclean, not eating without washing his hands properly!" Matthew 15:17-20

Create pure thoughts in me and make me faithful again. Don't chase me away from you or take your Holy Spirit away from me. Make me as happy as you did when you saved me; make me want to obey! Psalm 51:10-12

Christ died once for our sins. An innocent person died for those who are guilty. Christ did this to bring you to God, when His body was put to death and his spirit was made alive. 1 Peter 3:18

But when the kindness and love of God our savior dawned upon us, he saved us in his mercy-- not by virtue of any moral achievement of ours, but by the cleansing power of a new birth and the renewal of the Holy Spirit, which He poured upon us through Jesus Christ our Savior. The result is that we are acquitted by his grace, and can look foreward in hope to inheriting life eternal. Titus 3:4-8

As high as heaven is over the earth, so strong is His love to those who fear him. And as far as sunrise is from sunset, he has seperated us from our sins. Psalm 103:12

"Keep alert and pray. Otherwise temptation will overpower you. For though the spirit is willing enough, the body is weak." Mark 14:38

I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Ezekiel 36:26



Goodnight guys!!! Know that I really do love you all, even though I can't be there all the time... And of course... God loves you always, all the time, no matter how bad life and/or you get... I miss you guys.. and i'm praying for you. I hope maybe one of these says something to you...
*giant hug

Ever been walking down the road on a perfectly beautiful day thinking "everything is great, the future seems hopeful, and you're perfectly happy"... and then you get struck by lightening?
I have... It's not pretty.


Truth Seeker

You are Lord
And I fall in awe.
Your glory surpasses all
That I ever could have imagined

My eyes have been opened
And now I see
How vast and complex
You truly can be
Yet even still,
There are times
I sing your name
Filled simply
With uncontainable joy.

Like Solomon I asked
For wisdom
And your answer was yes
How could I know
The burden I would carry
The love that would grow
The life that would change
So suddenly
At the wave of your hand

But this request comes at a price
That I am terrified to guess at.

You are a just God.
And one dream may be
Substituted for another.
Will you take away
The only other desire
Of my heart
So that I can love you more?

Long ago
I asked you for a love
So strong
That it would surpass everything
I have ever known.

To live a life alone
Is my greatest fear.

Oh Lord please, no!
I beg you!
My heart is breaking
Torn between
It's only desires.
Do you see these tears?
They do not wash away
The pain.
Just thinking about
How life would be.

You are truly
The desire of my heart.
My mind longs for knowledge
And wisdom
And every precious thing
That you are.

I will be
A light unto your world
A caretaker of your people and your creation
A warrior of righteousness
Fighting anything in your path
And a truth seeker;
Always seeking your light
In the darkest places,
Learning your truths
And bringing them into the world

You remember the little girl?
Desperate, begging.
You knew the desire in her heart.
Yet you created in her
A desire for your wisdom.

The little girl is older now
And she has been fooled
And mislead before.
Following a dream
That you might not have for her.

Please my precious savior,
I am that little girl again.
I have fallen at your feet.
I will silence my desires,
Surrender my will
And like the child I was
Not so long ago
I will follow you blindly
Without question or complaint
Asking only that you show me
Your truth
I am a truth seeker.
Show me your truth in my life.


Will someone who has all the answers please stand up and give me a couple?

Alrighty...
Sorry that was so dramatic. hehe. I'm good now!

So i'm sitting here in my room listening to "Boom Boom Boom" by the Venga Boys.. lol. I think i've hit rock bottom... This is probably not the most appropriate song for a little Christian college girl to be listening to (but it's so FUNNY)... wait... the girl across the hall listens to the "Milkshake" song... nevermind. *giggles
This is the last day of my "reading recess". I have accomplished absolutely nothing. Luckily I don't have a lot to do.
So the other day I was sitting at my desk at about 10am in my pj's when this elderly mantainance guy bursts in and announces that he "will fine me if he sees my drying rack in the hallway again".... Males aren't supposed to be in our dorm untill afer 12, so naturally I was more than a little freaked out. I mean, he could have RAPED ME! I was alone!... and practically in my underwear!! *recalls line from "Big Daddy" referring to the old guy's... manhood... *shivers*.... maybe he was a unich..... well whatever.. something like this apparently happened to my friend Janelle on the same morning... creepy.

Did I mention that i've printed my soul off of my computer? hehehe.

Got a good grade on my Theology Midterm!! YAY!!

I miss all of you at home... I wish I could see you at thanksgiving, but I guess Christmas isn't all that far away.

Sappy, but true message for TJ:
TJ I love you... There's no hiding it or denying it. To be honest I wanted to do both of those things at first, but you wouldn't let me. You've completely exceeded my expectations. I was jaded by love and scared of it, and you gave it a new definition. It's so amazing to see how long it's taken me to peel the false layers off of myself. They're not completely gone, but we both know that God's timing is perfect, and He is always in control. Thank you for seeing the real me, even when I couldn't, and still loving me unconditionally.. Some would say that our relationship is a miracle... but I believe you now when you say it was an answer, and a gift... and so much more.

To Ben:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EXTREMELY LATE! I'm sending you a card, but you don't know that... shhh. Thank you and your family for the chocolate! I am eternally grateful. I miss you guys...

Alrighty people, I need to go get something accomplished today. Send me mail and love... and candy... =D

God Bless you all!
I love ya!

I just wish I could sleep. All I want is to be able to rest peacefully and not be tortured by my thoughts. Holding back tears that I can't show because people are always around. I close my eyes and pray desperately for the pain to go away, but I know that it cannot pass yet. The only words that form in the back of my mind are: "You are what I want". I can't look down at my hand without crying, running my fingers over the indentation once created by your ring. Tired of putting up the strong front. Whenever I see your face i've broken my heart all over again. I know now that I truly love you, and all I need is to hear those words and know that I will soon be holding you close. This seperation isn't new, but it is different. I think I will go insane unless I hear what's on your mind. Why does love hurt so much? Come and save me... Please.

"Oh i'm crazy... Crazy for feeling so lonely"
It's so lonely here when everything reminds me of you...
=(

(this is not quite accurate, but there is definately truth in it)

Only One

by Yellow Card

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

I wrote this a long time ago when I was angry. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I am still praying it isn't true.


The Snow

The snow falls softly as my tears
Framing my face
All around me is white and cold
But inside I am red and hot.

Snowflakes dancing, laughing,
Whirling around the small girl who trudges
Through their spotless world

She pays them no mind
Their defense won't sway her from her mission.
Through the snow she sees the fortress
A wall built slowly over many years

It's majestic features are regal,
But it's angles are sharp
And it's barricade is solid ice

The determination shows in her eyes
But her hands are trembling

With all her might,
She throws herself at the wall
Tearing at it's smooth exterior.

Screaming, and struggling helplessly,
She falls to the ground in exhaustion
Sobbing, and praying

Suddenly, a shining light appears
At the top of the farthest tower.
A glimmer of hope

A figure appears
He never speaks
But stands aloof
Staring down at the tear stricken child

All around him is shining and silvery
The snowflakes sparkle in the moonlight
And swirl in intricate waves
Around the icy wizard


The girl is frightened and blinded
By the false light,
She looks into the wizard's face.

Behind frozen features and dry eyes
She sees the hot tears;
Frustration and anger like her own
Burning through the coldness

But as quickly as the ice thins,
The cold freezes it.
And the wizard is quickly locked inside his frozen fortress

The girl stands helplessly at the gate
Bewildered, cold and alone
The snowflakes dance around her and freeze on her cheeks.

"I'll not come again"
The girl is saying,
"I can't keep living in a land
Where spring never comes"

A single tear falls from her eye
And lands at the foot of the castle
In it's place, a single rose buds in the snow

The snowflakes dance and laugh around
The small girl who is slowly fading from
Their spotless world

Deep within his castle
The wizard watches the girl walk away
She will not return.

The cold becomes colder

But

A single tear falls from his lashes.
He does not wipe it away.
And for a brief moment,
He is mortal.

You know when sometimes you read or hear something that you haven't heard in a long time and it suddenly makes sense to you?

This song made me cry in 6th grade. It makes me cry more now.

Light In Your Eyes
(Blessid Union of Souls)

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me