ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...... *sigh
Not so sure if that was a frustrated "oh" or an exhausted one.... or more likely i'm just sad. No Matter... Sorry to turn this into a whiny blog, but i'm completely drained/exhausted/dead/~insert descriptive adjective that will describe the way I feel~... Yes, even the optimistic one occasionally explores the dark side.
Don't really know what to say. TJ and I are over, and i'm devastated... even though I was the one to initiate the break-up. This will be the second time i've had to go through something like this. The first was still the worst, but I suppose that's to be expected. I used to believe, and quite humbly I might add, that I was pretty good at the girlfriend thing. I have been humbled. *sigh* I guess it just boils down to the fact that sometimes, even when you put everything you possibly can into something, it just doesn't work. This is especially hard for me to deal with. I realize that i'm just impatient and that my timing is not God's, so i'll wait here for Him to decide what the heck i'm supposed to do. But sometimes I just don't think I can do this again. Actually I thought that after I broke off my 2 year relationship with Ben, and now i'm just thinking it again. Will I actually not date? nah... I really want to get married someday. It's just gonna take ____ amount of time to find my husband.
Reality checks in again.
I really have to thank Kyla, Angela, Christy, Katie, Rachael, and my mommie for supporting me and supplying plenty of love, tissues and hugs. I love you guys. Also Ben for letting me call him and vent for about an hour... AND listening to me sing the "I hate men" song... THAT takes true tolerance... I don't know how much you actually talked, but I thank you for your patience. I love all of my friends. I am truly blessed to be surrounded by supportive loving people. TJ: I still care about you so much... I'm sorry things had to turn out this way... i'm praying for us both and I wish you well in the future.
And now.. to eat the ENTIRE box of belgian chocolates and listen to angry music... goodnight all.
...and maybe a tiny bit of emo *looks around* what?
"Polaris"
Jimmy Eat World
I'll say it straight and plain
I know I've made mistakes
I've always been afraid
I've always been afraid
A thousand nights or more
I travel east and north
Please answer the door
Can you tell me
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
Get down on your knees
Whisper what I need
Something pretty
Something pretty
I feel that when I'm old
I'll look at you and know
The world was beautiful
Then you tell me...
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
I'm done, there's nothing left to show
I try but can't let it go
Are you happy where you're standing still?
Do you really want the sugar pill?
I'll wake up tomorrow and I'll start
Tonight it feels so hard
As the train approaches Gare Du Nord
As I'm sure your kiss remains employed
Am I only dreaming?
You say that love goes anywhere
In your darkest time, it's just enough to know it's there
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
When you go, I'll let you be
But you're killing everything in me
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February 04, 2005
January 22, 2005
Personality Test
Wow this is freaky!! I took the Meyers/Briggs personality test, which is a pretty famous personality test. I would definately reccomend it. They give you a lot of feedback about your personality type. Here is the Link: http://www.kisa.ca/personality/
Some of my Results:
I am an ENFP which stands for "Extraverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Perceiving"
ENFPs generally have the following traits:
Project-oriented
Bright and capable
Warmly, genuinely interested in people; great people skills
Extremely intuitive and perceptive about people
Able to relate to people on their own level
Service-oriented; likely to put the needs of others above their own
Future-oriented
Dislike performing routine tasks
Need approval and appreciation from others
Cooperative and friendly
Creative and energetic
Well-developed verbal and written communication skills
Natural leaders, but do not like to control people
Resist being controlled by others
Can work logically and rationally - use their intuition to understand the goal and work backwards towards it
Usually able to grasp difficult concepts and theories
ENFPs are lucky in that they're good a quite a lot of different things. An ENFP can generally achieve a good degree of success at anything which has interested them. However, ENFPs get bored rather easily and are not naturally good at following things through to completion. Accordingly, they should avoid jobs which require performing a lot of detailed, routine-oriented tasks. They will do best in professions which allow them to creatively generate new ideas and deal closely with people. They will not be happy in positions which are confining and regimented.
Most ENFPs will exhibit the following strengths with regards to relationships issues:
Good communication skills
Very perceptive about people's thought and motives
Motivational, inspirational; bring out the best in others
Warmly affectionate and affirming
Fun to be with - lively sense of humor, dramatic, energetic, optimistic
Strive for "win-win" situations
Driven to meet other's needs
Usually loyal and dedicated
Most ENFPs will exhibit the following weaknesses with regards to relationship issues:
Tendency to be smothering
Their enthusiasm may lead them to be unrealistic
Uninterested in dealing with "mundane" matters such as cleaning, paying bills, etc.
Hold onto bad relationships long after they've turned bad
Extreme dislike of conflict
Extreme dislike of criticism
Don't pay attention to their own needs
Constant quest for the perfect relationship may make them change relationships frequently
May become bored easily
Have difficulty scolding or punishing others
Friendships:
(This section made me laugh a lot because it is exactly right!!!)
ENFPs are warm and sociable people who are keenly in tune with other people's feelings and perspectives. They are energetic and fun to be with. They are very affirming, and get great satisfaction from supporting and lifting up others. They are idealists who seek authenticity in their personal relationships. ENFPs are valued by their peers and confidantes as warm, supportive, giving people.
In the workplace or other casual relationship environments, the ENFP is likely to get along well with almost all other types of people. ENFPs are genuinely interested in people, and are highly perceptive about them, to the point where they're able to understand and relate to all of the personality types with relative ease. They like to see the best in others, and are likely to bring out the best in others. While they are generally accepting of most all people, ENFPs with strong Feeling preferences may have a difficult time understanding people with very strong Thinking preferences who do not respond to the ENFP's enthusiastic warmth. The ENFP will stay open-minded about what they consider a "rejection" by the Thinker, until the situation has repeated itself a few times, in which case the ENFP may shut themselves entirely against the Thinker. (wow. lol)
ENFPs may also feel threatened by individuals with strong Judging preferences. With a tendency to take any criticism personally, the ENFP may find themselves irritated or emotional when the Judger expresses a negative opinion, believing somehow that the Judger is expressing disapproval or disappointment in the ENFP.
For close friendships, ENFPs are especially drawn to other iNtuitive Feeling types, and to other Extraverts who are also enthusiastic about life. Like the other iNtuitive Feeling types, the ENFP needs authenticity and depth in their close relationships. They're likely to have friends from all walks of life who they feel close to and care about, but will have only a few very close friends with similar ideals to their own. The ENFP also tends to value the company of iNtuitive Thinkers.
Romantic Relationships:
ENFPs make warm, considerate, passionate partners who are generally willing, eager, and able to do whatever it takes to make The Relationship a positive place to be. They are enthusiastic, idealistic, focused on other people's feelings, and very flexible. These attributes combine to make them especially interested in positive personal relationships, and also makes them very able to promote strong relationships in fun and creative ways. ENFPs take their commitments very seriously, and are generally deeply loyal and faithful to their partners.
There are a couple of difficult relationship areas for the ENFP. The first problem is that many ENFPs have a problem leaving bad relationships. They tend to internalize any problems and take them on their own shoulders, believing that the success or failure of the relationship is their own responsibility. As perfectionists, they don't like to admit defeat, and will stick with bad situations long after they should have left. When they do leave the relationship, they will believe that the failure was their fault, and that there was surely something they could have done to save the relationship.
Since relationships are central to the ENFP's life, they will be very "hands on" and involved with their intimate relationships. They may be in the habit of constantly asking their partner how they're doing, what they're feeling, etc. This behavior may be a bit smothering, but it also supports a strong awareness of the health (or illness) of the relationship.
Sexually, (This does not apply yet. hehe) The ENFP is creative, perfectionistic, playful and affectionate. Their rich fantasy world makes them fun and creative lovers, who usually have new ideas up their sleeves. They whole-heartedly embrace the opportunity for closeness with their mates, believing sexual intimacy to be a positive, fun way to express how much you love each other.
The ENFP needs to be given positive assurance and affirmation. More than one ENFP has been known to "go fishing" for compliments. They like to hear from their significant others that they are loved and valued, and are willing and eager to return the favor. They enjoy lavishing love and affection on their mates, and are creative and energetic in their efforts to please. The ENFP gets a lot of their personal satisfaction from observing the happiness of others, and so is generally determined to please and serve their partners.
A problem area for ENFPs in relationships is their dislike of conflict and sensitivity to criticism. They are perfectionists who believe that any form of criticism is a stab at their character, which is very difficult for them to take. Conflict situations are sources of extreme stress to the ENFP. They have a tendency to brush issues under the rug rather than confront them head-on, if there is likely to be a conflict. They are also prone to "give in" easily in conflict situations, just to end the conflict. They might agree to something which goes against their values just to end the uncomfortable situation. In such cases, the problem is extended and will return at a later time. The ENFP needs to realize that conflict situations are not the end of the world. They are entirely normal, and can be quite helpful for the growth of a relationship. They also need to work on taking criticism for what it is, rather than blowing up any negative comment into an indictment against their entire character.
Generally, the ENFP is a warm and affirming creature who is very interested and able to have an intense, meaningful, close relationship with their mate.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, ENFP's natural partner is the INTJ, or the INFJ. ENFP's dominant function of Extraverted Intuition is best matched with a partner whose dominant function is Introverted Intuition. How did we arrive at this?
Some of my Results:
I am an ENFP which stands for "Extraverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Perceiving"
ENFPs generally have the following traits:
Project-oriented
Bright and capable
Warmly, genuinely interested in people; great people skills
Extremely intuitive and perceptive about people
Able to relate to people on their own level
Service-oriented; likely to put the needs of others above their own
Future-oriented
Dislike performing routine tasks
Need approval and appreciation from others
Cooperative and friendly
Creative and energetic
Well-developed verbal and written communication skills
Natural leaders, but do not like to control people
Resist being controlled by others
Can work logically and rationally - use their intuition to understand the goal and work backwards towards it
Usually able to grasp difficult concepts and theories
ENFPs are lucky in that they're good a quite a lot of different things. An ENFP can generally achieve a good degree of success at anything which has interested them. However, ENFPs get bored rather easily and are not naturally good at following things through to completion. Accordingly, they should avoid jobs which require performing a lot of detailed, routine-oriented tasks. They will do best in professions which allow them to creatively generate new ideas and deal closely with people. They will not be happy in positions which are confining and regimented.
Most ENFPs will exhibit the following strengths with regards to relationships issues:
Good communication skills
Very perceptive about people's thought and motives
Motivational, inspirational; bring out the best in others
Warmly affectionate and affirming
Fun to be with - lively sense of humor, dramatic, energetic, optimistic
Strive for "win-win" situations
Driven to meet other's needs
Usually loyal and dedicated
Most ENFPs will exhibit the following weaknesses with regards to relationship issues:
Tendency to be smothering
Their enthusiasm may lead them to be unrealistic
Uninterested in dealing with "mundane" matters such as cleaning, paying bills, etc.
Hold onto bad relationships long after they've turned bad
Extreme dislike of conflict
Extreme dislike of criticism
Don't pay attention to their own needs
Constant quest for the perfect relationship may make them change relationships frequently
May become bored easily
Have difficulty scolding or punishing others
Friendships:
(This section made me laugh a lot because it is exactly right!!!)
ENFPs are warm and sociable people who are keenly in tune with other people's feelings and perspectives. They are energetic and fun to be with. They are very affirming, and get great satisfaction from supporting and lifting up others. They are idealists who seek authenticity in their personal relationships. ENFPs are valued by their peers and confidantes as warm, supportive, giving people.
In the workplace or other casual relationship environments, the ENFP is likely to get along well with almost all other types of people. ENFPs are genuinely interested in people, and are highly perceptive about them, to the point where they're able to understand and relate to all of the personality types with relative ease. They like to see the best in others, and are likely to bring out the best in others. While they are generally accepting of most all people, ENFPs with strong Feeling preferences may have a difficult time understanding people with very strong Thinking preferences who do not respond to the ENFP's enthusiastic warmth. The ENFP will stay open-minded about what they consider a "rejection" by the Thinker, until the situation has repeated itself a few times, in which case the ENFP may shut themselves entirely against the Thinker. (wow. lol)
ENFPs may also feel threatened by individuals with strong Judging preferences. With a tendency to take any criticism personally, the ENFP may find themselves irritated or emotional when the Judger expresses a negative opinion, believing somehow that the Judger is expressing disapproval or disappointment in the ENFP.
For close friendships, ENFPs are especially drawn to other iNtuitive Feeling types, and to other Extraverts who are also enthusiastic about life. Like the other iNtuitive Feeling types, the ENFP needs authenticity and depth in their close relationships. They're likely to have friends from all walks of life who they feel close to and care about, but will have only a few very close friends with similar ideals to their own. The ENFP also tends to value the company of iNtuitive Thinkers.
Romantic Relationships:
ENFPs make warm, considerate, passionate partners who are generally willing, eager, and able to do whatever it takes to make The Relationship a positive place to be. They are enthusiastic, idealistic, focused on other people's feelings, and very flexible. These attributes combine to make them especially interested in positive personal relationships, and also makes them very able to promote strong relationships in fun and creative ways. ENFPs take their commitments very seriously, and are generally deeply loyal and faithful to their partners.
There are a couple of difficult relationship areas for the ENFP. The first problem is that many ENFPs have a problem leaving bad relationships. They tend to internalize any problems and take them on their own shoulders, believing that the success or failure of the relationship is their own responsibility. As perfectionists, they don't like to admit defeat, and will stick with bad situations long after they should have left. When they do leave the relationship, they will believe that the failure was their fault, and that there was surely something they could have done to save the relationship.
Since relationships are central to the ENFP's life, they will be very "hands on" and involved with their intimate relationships. They may be in the habit of constantly asking their partner how they're doing, what they're feeling, etc. This behavior may be a bit smothering, but it also supports a strong awareness of the health (or illness) of the relationship.
Sexually, (This does not apply yet. hehe) The ENFP is creative, perfectionistic, playful and affectionate. Their rich fantasy world makes them fun and creative lovers, who usually have new ideas up their sleeves. They whole-heartedly embrace the opportunity for closeness with their mates, believing sexual intimacy to be a positive, fun way to express how much you love each other.
The ENFP needs to be given positive assurance and affirmation. More than one ENFP has been known to "go fishing" for compliments. They like to hear from their significant others that they are loved and valued, and are willing and eager to return the favor. They enjoy lavishing love and affection on their mates, and are creative and energetic in their efforts to please. The ENFP gets a lot of their personal satisfaction from observing the happiness of others, and so is generally determined to please and serve their partners.
A problem area for ENFPs in relationships is their dislike of conflict and sensitivity to criticism. They are perfectionists who believe that any form of criticism is a stab at their character, which is very difficult for them to take. Conflict situations are sources of extreme stress to the ENFP. They have a tendency to brush issues under the rug rather than confront them head-on, if there is likely to be a conflict. They are also prone to "give in" easily in conflict situations, just to end the conflict. They might agree to something which goes against their values just to end the uncomfortable situation. In such cases, the problem is extended and will return at a later time. The ENFP needs to realize that conflict situations are not the end of the world. They are entirely normal, and can be quite helpful for the growth of a relationship. They also need to work on taking criticism for what it is, rather than blowing up any negative comment into an indictment against their entire character.
Generally, the ENFP is a warm and affirming creature who is very interested and able to have an intense, meaningful, close relationship with their mate.
Although two well-developed individuals of any type can enjoy a healthy relationship, ENFP's natural partner is the INTJ, or the INFJ. ENFP's dominant function of Extraverted Intuition is best matched with a partner whose dominant function is Introverted Intuition. How did we arrive at this?
"You're just across the street
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes around by chance
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me
You always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up, put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmiser song goes:
'It's just like being alone...'
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me
You've got some nerve but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do but I just can't turn away..."
- Jimmy Eat World: Kill
Looks a mile to my feet
I want to go to you
Funny how I'm nervous still
I've always been the easy kill
I guess I always will
Could it be that everything goes around by chance
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me
You always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do but I just can't walk away
I can picture your face well
From the bar in my hotel
I wish I'd go to you
I pick up, put down the phone
Like your favorite Heatmiser song goes:
'It's just like being alone...'
Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me
You've got some nerve but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do but I just can't turn away..."
- Jimmy Eat World: Kill
January 15, 2005
I am officially dead...
Curses!!
Our dorm has been playing this game called "assassins" where the players are given someone to kill (within our dorm) and we have 24 hours to do so without being killed first. Once we kill our victim we are assigned to kill the victim that they were supposed to kill, and the process starts over until there is only 1 person left standing. Anyways... I died. lol. I fail at assassinations. I did successfully kill one of my friends though (we kill people by hitting them with a ball or a nerf dart or a rubber band or something). At least I wasn't first round kill. *shrugs* I'm satisfied. hehehe. Not to mention the fact that i'm still involved in sabotage... but you don't know that...
So I almost cut my fingers off the other day... OK so i'm being a TAD bit overly dramatic, but I did bash them up quite a bit. Kyla stole Molest-a-fish and started running out of the room with him and when I tried to follow, she started to close the door and accidentally caught my fingers in the process. Oops. Moms always warn us of these things, but do we listen? "Don't horse around! You'll poke an eye out!" or break a finger or 2. I went to the doctor and was told that had I come in the night it happened they would have put a few stitches in it, but it was too late. Now I'm getting a battle scar!! I feel tough! *jumps up and down* I also had an x-ray, but i'm fairly sure my fingers aren't broken (I'm not having trouble typing this).
I have found a new (and healthy!) addiction! Yesterday I went to the store and bought a sack of Clemintine Tangerines. I am hooked. I've had the little things before, but never bought them. Now it's like every time I sit down at this desk I have to eat one.... mmmmmm.... or 3. It could be worse. I could be feeding my caffine addiction. At least I won't be coming down with a cold any time soon.
Not too much new here. I've been working on my take-home midterm paper that's due monday. It's not gonna be extremely hard, I'm just afraid i'll leave something out. meh.
Ladies I have learned that if you want to get attention from boys, bake cookies and hand them out in their dorm. Some of my friends and I baked cookies and had a bunch of extra ones (they were HOT!), so we walked around and gave them to unsuspecting Beets (their dorm) boys. There were more than a few pick up lines used... haha. It was amusing.
uuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh....... That's all. My life isn't extremely interesting. =P
By the way...
Bri: LAKATSK8TR@aol.com is my aol sn, but I haven't used it in years.... Creepy! How did I meet you freshman year? I don't remember anything about Canada... hehe. it's wierd how inter-connected everyone on this planet really is...
Love y'all!
Laura
Our dorm has been playing this game called "assassins" where the players are given someone to kill (within our dorm) and we have 24 hours to do so without being killed first. Once we kill our victim we are assigned to kill the victim that they were supposed to kill, and the process starts over until there is only 1 person left standing. Anyways... I died. lol. I fail at assassinations. I did successfully kill one of my friends though (we kill people by hitting them with a ball or a nerf dart or a rubber band or something). At least I wasn't first round kill. *shrugs* I'm satisfied. hehehe. Not to mention the fact that i'm still involved in sabotage... but you don't know that...
So I almost cut my fingers off the other day... OK so i'm being a TAD bit overly dramatic, but I did bash them up quite a bit. Kyla stole Molest-a-fish and started running out of the room with him and when I tried to follow, she started to close the door and accidentally caught my fingers in the process. Oops. Moms always warn us of these things, but do we listen? "Don't horse around! You'll poke an eye out!" or break a finger or 2. I went to the doctor and was told that had I come in the night it happened they would have put a few stitches in it, but it was too late. Now I'm getting a battle scar!! I feel tough! *jumps up and down* I also had an x-ray, but i'm fairly sure my fingers aren't broken (I'm not having trouble typing this).
I have found a new (and healthy!) addiction! Yesterday I went to the store and bought a sack of Clemintine Tangerines. I am hooked. I've had the little things before, but never bought them. Now it's like every time I sit down at this desk I have to eat one.... mmmmmm.... or 3. It could be worse. I could be feeding my caffine addiction. At least I won't be coming down with a cold any time soon.
Not too much new here. I've been working on my take-home midterm paper that's due monday. It's not gonna be extremely hard, I'm just afraid i'll leave something out. meh.
Ladies I have learned that if you want to get attention from boys, bake cookies and hand them out in their dorm. Some of my friends and I baked cookies and had a bunch of extra ones (they were HOT!), so we walked around and gave them to unsuspecting Beets (their dorm) boys. There were more than a few pick up lines used... haha. It was amusing.
uuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhh....... That's all. My life isn't extremely interesting. =P
By the way...
Bri: LAKATSK8TR@aol.com is my aol sn, but I haven't used it in years.... Creepy! How did I meet you freshman year? I don't remember anything about Canada... hehe. it's wierd how inter-connected everyone on this planet really is...
Love y'all!
Laura
January 13, 2005
Survey...
Survey that Laura sent me!
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Laura
2. Kat
3. Hollingsworth
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. LAKATSK8TR
2. blukat8504
3. creativeoncommand
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I kinda like being short… I may look young now, but in 20 years I'll probably still look younger than I am. Hehehe.
2. My eyes
3. The fact that I like to exercise and dance, etc… because if I didn't I wouldn't be in shape... *shrugs* I guess it's more important to me than I realized.
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I absolutely hate the fact that I can't easily talk to people who I don't know very well… I just have no idea what to say, and I come off as boring.
2. I have good ideas sometimes and the only way I can express them is in writing… which is really bad during a debate…
3. I can confront someone if there is a problem, but it kills me to have to hurt someone.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. French & German
2. Native American (ha! Didn't see that one coming did you?)
3. Scottish & Anglo-Saxon. (I just found out that my family was one of the original Anglo families in England and worked as groundskeepers for the king.(before the French came over), and that some ancestor I have is responsible for laying out some of earliest American colonies. )
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Divorce/falling out of love in marriage
2. Cold, fast-moving water (rapids)
3. Spiders
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
Besides the basics?… hmmm
1. Music
2. Some kind of human interaction. hehe
3. Sleep. Right now, that's what I need most.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Kahkis
2. TROGDOR the BURNINATOR! T-shirt
3. 2 promise rings. Hehehe.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. YEAH RIGHT! There are WAY too many
2. I agree with Wittwer; the Disgruntled Pink Fuzzies WILL have their day soon! And we will succeed!
3. I should say N*Sync just to see what kind of reaction I get. lol
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Right now, probably anything Jimmy Eat World
2. The Mmhmm CD by Relient K is really good, as well as most all of their other ones…
3. I've also been listening to Eve 6 and Red Hot Chili Peppers lately
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Being more outgoing… call it more of an on-going goal
2. Skiing the outback (ie out-of-bounds extreme skiing)
3. I think I'm gonna have to agree with Wittwer when she says "kissing in the rain" because I've never tried it…
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
Love and commitment are always first!!
1. He has to be a growing Christian, no questions asked
2. He will be kind hearted but not afraid of confronting problems that come up… Oh, I don't take yelling very well.
3. Intelligent conversations
THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Compassion/Christ-mindedness/humility
2. Eyes
3. Intelligence (but not arrogance)/Wisdom, Sense of humor, ability to be completely crazy (and to tolerate me when I am. Happens a lot)
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Eat a live goldfish. It's a long story. ;-)
2. Give up.
3. Argue with people who are so stubbornly opinionated that they won't listen to your point of view.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing/Recording music, Writing (pretty much anything), Singing & Playing piano
2. Hanging out with friends
3. Ice skating, Dancing, Skiing, Exercising,
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. The UK and/or Europe
2. Russia
3. Japan
THREE KID'S NAMES:
??? not really sure yet… I like weird names
1. Will, Jesse, Hayden, Lance (lol yes I know)
2. Katya/Kasha, Anjuli, Stacia, Evelyn
3. I cheated 0 =)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Make a professional recording of my music
2. Be happily married and very much in love, with kids
3. Find out what my calling is and glorifying God with whatever He wants me to do
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Laura
2. Kat
3. Hollingsworth
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. LAKATSK8TR
2. blukat8504
3. creativeoncommand
THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I kinda like being short… I may look young now, but in 20 years I'll probably still look younger than I am. Hehehe.
2. My eyes
3. The fact that I like to exercise and dance, etc… because if I didn't I wouldn't be in shape... *shrugs* I guess it's more important to me than I realized.
THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. I absolutely hate the fact that I can't easily talk to people who I don't know very well… I just have no idea what to say, and I come off as boring.
2. I have good ideas sometimes and the only way I can express them is in writing… which is really bad during a debate…
3. I can confront someone if there is a problem, but it kills me to have to hurt someone.
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. French & German
2. Native American (ha! Didn't see that one coming did you?)
3. Scottish & Anglo-Saxon. (I just found out that my family was one of the original Anglo families in England and worked as groundskeepers for the king.(before the French came over), and that some ancestor I have is responsible for laying out some of earliest American colonies. )
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Divorce/falling out of love in marriage
2. Cold, fast-moving water (rapids)
3. Spiders
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
Besides the basics?… hmmm
1. Music
2. Some kind of human interaction. hehe
3. Sleep. Right now, that's what I need most.
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. Kahkis
2. TROGDOR the BURNINATOR! T-shirt
3. 2 promise rings. Hehehe.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
1. YEAH RIGHT! There are WAY too many
2. I agree with Wittwer; the Disgruntled Pink Fuzzies WILL have their day soon! And we will succeed!
3. I should say N*Sync just to see what kind of reaction I get. lol
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
1. Right now, probably anything Jimmy Eat World
2. The Mmhmm CD by Relient K is really good, as well as most all of their other ones…
3. I've also been listening to Eve 6 and Red Hot Chili Peppers lately
THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
1. Being more outgoing… call it more of an on-going goal
2. Skiing the outback (ie out-of-bounds extreme skiing)
3. I think I'm gonna have to agree with Wittwer when she says "kissing in the rain" because I've never tried it…
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
Love and commitment are always first!!
1. He has to be a growing Christian, no questions asked
2. He will be kind hearted but not afraid of confronting problems that come up… Oh, I don't take yelling very well.
3. Intelligent conversations
THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Compassion/Christ-mindedness/humility
2. Eyes
3. Intelligence (but not arrogance)/Wisdom, Sense of humor, ability to be completely crazy (and to tolerate me when I am. Happens a lot)
THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
1. Eat a live goldfish. It's a long story. ;-)
2. Give up.
3. Argue with people who are so stubbornly opinionated that they won't listen to your point of view.
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Writing/Recording music, Writing (pretty much anything), Singing & Playing piano
2. Hanging out with friends
3. Ice skating, Dancing, Skiing, Exercising,
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. The UK and/or Europe
2. Russia
3. Japan
THREE KID'S NAMES:
??? not really sure yet… I like weird names
1. Will, Jesse, Hayden, Lance (lol yes I know)
2. Katya/Kasha, Anjuli, Stacia, Evelyn
3. I cheated 0 =)
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Make a professional recording of my music
2. Be happily married and very much in love, with kids
3. Find out what my calling is and glorifying God with whatever He wants me to do
January 12, 2005
Love Sac!
To all those who just resumed college life: Welcome back to reality... To the rest of us who have been at if for a few weeks now: Happy Wednesday! =D
I've added some new pictures to Flicker, so go check them out! I can only upload so many each month so this will be it till February. Now I know that some of you are probably pretty excited to have pictures of yourselves on the internet... Some of you will probably use this opportunity to try to get dates... You might even gain some secret internet admirers, or a stalker or (gasp! could it be?) an INTERNET significant other!... I know it's hard, but please try to contain your excitement...
Just as a general announcement: WE NOW HAVE A LOVE SAC !!! I have to say that i've never been happier in my life. I love my love sac and it loves me. It's a wonderful relationship. Come by sometime and have a sit... Unless you are one of the unfortunate people who wants to steal Molest-a-fish or Barney the Oracle. I know who you are and where you sleep!
I'm trying every option I can possibly think of that will keep me from doing my DCM reading... So far it's working. I really like the class i'm in. It has a good topic and decent discussions. It's also nice to start class early and have the afternoon and evening free... Even so, 4 hours of reading is an awful lot! I'm procrastinating pretty badly right now. I should go soon and finnish it, but I told 2 people i'd post today so I'm keeping my promise. Not much else new here... The Love Sac is pretty darn exciting. I also have new speakers! It's a constant party up in 260 Veenstra. Rock.
By the way...
Joel: Have you changed your name to "Noah Wylde" to create the illusion that you are some kind of secret literary man of mystery? Does this somehow feed your creative muse or do you just want an internet alter-ego? hehe. You guys amuse me. I miss you!
I miss my tag board, but I can't find a new one, and don't know enough html to make one...
**New post coming to God-Only-Knows very soon!!**
~ ~ ~
My Moment of Zen for the day:
(I just wrote this today)
The Dance
You bowed to kiss my hand
Your fingers gently brushed mine
And we drifted away
Moving as one
In a dream we've had
Hundreds of times before
Your surprise reflected in my eyes
But your smile lit your face
With such a startling brilliance and warmth
That it took my breath away
Time stood still.
Something within me broke away
In that beautiful moment of perfection
Beyond the realm of feeling
It was then that
I felt the tears
Soft on your cheek
And marveled at how precious they were.
Some melody
Ancient and haunting
Was welling up inside of us
Pulling us closer
Spinning us faster
Carrying us on angel's wings
To a higher place
Still untouched and untainted
By our created mortality
Dancing on heaven's doorstep
With the gates thrown open wide
It was then that you brushed a tear
From my cheek
And left a kiss in its place
Saying "angels never cry"
Yet I'd give up dancing forever
At heaven's door
If I could stay here in this moment
A moment more
~ ~ ~
Love you all, God Bless
Laura
I've added some new pictures to Flicker, so go check them out! I can only upload so many each month so this will be it till February. Now I know that some of you are probably pretty excited to have pictures of yourselves on the internet... Some of you will probably use this opportunity to try to get dates... You might even gain some secret internet admirers, or a stalker or (gasp! could it be?) an INTERNET significant other!... I know it's hard, but please try to contain your excitement...
Just as a general announcement: WE NOW HAVE A LOVE SAC !!! I have to say that i've never been happier in my life. I love my love sac and it loves me. It's a wonderful relationship. Come by sometime and have a sit... Unless you are one of the unfortunate people who wants to steal Molest-a-fish or Barney the Oracle. I know who you are and where you sleep!
I'm trying every option I can possibly think of that will keep me from doing my DCM reading... So far it's working. I really like the class i'm in. It has a good topic and decent discussions. It's also nice to start class early and have the afternoon and evening free... Even so, 4 hours of reading is an awful lot! I'm procrastinating pretty badly right now. I should go soon and finnish it, but I told 2 people i'd post today so I'm keeping my promise. Not much else new here... The Love Sac is pretty darn exciting. I also have new speakers! It's a constant party up in 260 Veenstra. Rock.
By the way...
Joel: Have you changed your name to "Noah Wylde" to create the illusion that you are some kind of secret literary man of mystery? Does this somehow feed your creative muse or do you just want an internet alter-ego? hehe. You guys amuse me. I miss you!
I miss my tag board, but I can't find a new one, and don't know enough html to make one...
**New post coming to God-Only-Knows very soon!!**
~ ~ ~
My Moment of Zen for the day:
(I just wrote this today)
The Dance
You bowed to kiss my hand
Your fingers gently brushed mine
And we drifted away
Moving as one
In a dream we've had
Hundreds of times before
Your surprise reflected in my eyes
But your smile lit your face
With such a startling brilliance and warmth
That it took my breath away
Time stood still.
Something within me broke away
In that beautiful moment of perfection
Beyond the realm of feeling
It was then that
I felt the tears
Soft on your cheek
And marveled at how precious they were.
Some melody
Ancient and haunting
Was welling up inside of us
Pulling us closer
Spinning us faster
Carrying us on angel's wings
To a higher place
Still untouched and untainted
By our created mortality
Dancing on heaven's doorstep
With the gates thrown open wide
It was then that you brushed a tear
From my cheek
And left a kiss in its place
Saying "angels never cry"
Yet I'd give up dancing forever
At heaven's door
If I could stay here in this moment
A moment more
~ ~ ~
Love you all, God Bless
Laura
January 05, 2005
What can I say...?
3 1/2 hours of class...
4+ hours of reading...
Feelings = dead
Time for relaxation/stress relief?
I think not.
I'm more sorry than you'll ever know. Take time, be angry, hate me if you like, but don't tell me that i'm not your friend. That hurts.
*sigh*
Probably my favorite song on the newest Jimmy Eat World Cd...
23
I felt for sure last night
At once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
Im still driving away
And Im sorry every day
I wont always love these selfish things
I wont always live...
Stop it...
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
Youll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
Im here and now Im ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems
Ill be 23
I wont always love what Ill never have
I wont always live in my regrets
Youll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
Im here and now Im ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Youll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
Im here and now Im ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...
4+ hours of reading...
Feelings = dead
Time for relaxation/stress relief?
I think not.
I'm more sorry than you'll ever know. Take time, be angry, hate me if you like, but don't tell me that i'm not your friend. That hurts.
*sigh*
Probably my favorite song on the newest Jimmy Eat World Cd...
23
I felt for sure last night
At once we said goodbye
No one else will know these lonely dreams
No one else will know that part of me
Im still driving away
And Im sorry every day
I wont always love these selfish things
I wont always live...
Stop it...
It was my turn to decide
I knew this was our time
No one else will have me like you do
No one else will have me, only you
Youll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
Im here and now Im ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems
Ill be 23
I wont always love what Ill never have
I wont always live in my regrets
Youll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
Im here and now Im ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine
Youll sit alone forever
If you wait for the right time
What are you hoping for?
Im here and now Im ready
Holding on tight
Dont give away the end
The one thing that stays mine...
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