Hey guys

i'm leaving in about 10min, but I have a little extra time.... I don't wanna drive 12 hours... ack. Well I guess it's time to leave. The lyrics to the song I sang this year at the variety show:

The Boy Why Never Knew

You say that love is cruel
You can do it on your own
But when you look in my eyes
You know you’re not alone

Am I a fool?
Am I blind?
Why can’t I speak
When my heart is crying?

I’ll never tell you
How my heart breaks when you leave the room
Or how the stars dance in your eyes
There may be nothing but these words that I sing for you
And the song to the boy who never knew
Just the song to the boy who never knew.

Don't let your future be your past
I see your pain you're falling fast
Don't hide the face
Behind the mask

I’ll never tell you
How my heart breaks when you leave the room
Or how the stars dance in your eyes
There may be nothing but the words here that I sing to you
And the song to the boy who never knew
And the song to the boy who never knew.

Hi y'all!

I guess it's time for a "happy post"... For clarification, I didn't mean for anyone to take that last post as "woe is me, my friends have ditched me." I just couldn't get a hold of anyone that night. I love you guys more than I can express, and I know the feeling is mutual. =)

So what's going on in my life... hmmmm... Well at the moment I'm sitting in an extremely uncomfortable chair listening to a bunch of Chinese people chatter away nonsensically. Is that a word? nonsensically.. nonsensibly?.. yeah. whatever. I gots a good edjumacation... hehe.

This is officially my last week of skating. My mom and I sat down and had a discussion the other day. Basically we (more her than me) decided that since I am no longer testing or competing.. or even skating except when I have a lesson… it doesn't make sense to keep paying all this money for lessons. So I talked to Jason yesterday morning and now I have 2 more lessons… ever… I NEVER HAVE TO GET UP AT 5AM AGAIN!!!!! YES!!!.. Alright, so I'm not quite that happy. Skating has been my life since I was 8 years old. When I was competing I hardly ever had a social life or a summer… Some of you remember this and were very happy when I stopped... It gave me strength, determination, goals, confidence…. sleep loss, back problems, knee problems, physical therapy, anxiety attacks…. A lot of my life has been affected by it.. So I don't know how to feel quite yet… and I'm afraid of being out of shape…. Meh, I get to sleep in, who cares… In any case, my last day is Friday morning. =(

Random change of subject…

LOOK! A BLUE CAR!!!

hmmm, so I'm curious... Would it be possible to have sex in a tree? Now that's a serious question, don't get perverted on me. *crosses arms and attempts to look serious* Now I know it would be possible in a tree house... but in the branches of a tree? I ask because I accidentally overheard someone talking about it (it gets extremely boring around here at times and we all know what kind of bizarre conversations arise from extreme boredom.. wink wink). But yes... The mechanics of the thing? Ouch! I suppose where there's a will there's a way, but you'd have to be extremely horney, or a gymnast....... or really bored with a lot of time on your hands.

So far I've only heard one other opinion...

creativeoncommand: I'm talking about sex in a tree
teejnits: wow
creativeoncommand: I'm just asking a serious question…
creativeoncommand: is it possible to have sex in a tree?
teejnits: haha... a serious question?
creativeoncommand: lol
creativeoncommand: yup
creativeoncommand: I don't know if that's physically possible
teejnits: I think it is
teejnits: How do you think Tarzan had kids?
creativeoncommand: lol
creativeoncommand: good point
creativeoncommand: no wait...
creativeoncommand: he had a tree house
teejnits: I never saw that in the Disney Movie
creativeoncommand: hehe
teejnits: I think it is possible on a bigger tree, it would just hurt a little
teejnits: or a lot
creativeoncommand: lol
creativeoncommand: it'd be rather prickly
teejnits: a bed of leaves?
teejnits: A NEST
creativeoncommand: a "love nest" haha


So maybe it is possible.... Gosh Disney really needs to take these things into consideration. Tarzan having a love nest? It seems rather wrong... hehe. I don't know where I get this stuff.. ANYWAYS... I think I've had a few too many mountain dews this morning.... Give me your thoughts on the subject...

look!! A shiny thing!!!!!

I'll be back later....

Everyone is gone. =(

Today has been a really long day... I woke up this morning and immediately wished that I hadn't.. Church was pretty ok, but I got home and had to clean my room. *shivers* I think some of the things in my closet were living. yikes!...

Man I feel so alone sometimes. I know i'm not, and I love you guys dearly. I shouldn't complain because i'm blessed in more ways than I can count every day, and I am greatful... I need chocolate.. hehehe. 5:30's gonna come really early tomorrow. Tomorrow is the day I tell Jason and Jordon that i'm done skating... I'm dreading it. I wish I was more sure about this decision, but a decision needs to be made now, so i'm just making it before I think too much about it.... if that makes any sense... TJ left yesterday =(. Sam is out of town.... I dunno where Ben and Joel are. Wittwer called this morning (when I was cleaning my room). I saw Jackie last night.... I need a hug, but no one is here... aw crap i'm whining.. well i'm gonna stop now. I'll try to get some sleep.

'Night all...

Unicorn:
Unicorns are on of the purest creatures on earth
and are illustrated and depicted throughout
literature. They are pure calm free-spirited
creatures who love their space. You like being
arounf other people but you also calue your
space and free time. People are in awe of you
but tend to keep their distance. You are loved
by many and are one of the few uncorrupted
people of this earth.


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Wittwer just sent this to me. I like the advice it gives.

21 Pieces of Advice:

ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.

THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.

FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.

SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.

SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.

EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.

NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.

TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.

ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.

TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.

THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"

FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.

SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson

SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and Responsibility for all your actions.

EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.

TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.


I love you guys!

"...What shall I say? 'Father, save me from this hour? But for this purpose I came to this hour. 'Father, glorify Your name'" (John 12:27-28)

"As a saint of God , my attitude toward sorrow and difficulty should not be to ask that they be prevented, but to ask that God protect me so that I may remain what he created me to be, in spite of all my fires of sorrow...
We say that there ought to be no sorrow, but there is sorrow, and we have to accept and recieve ourselves in it's fires. If we try to evade sorrow, refusing to deal with it, we are foolish. Sorrow is one of the biggest facts in life, and there is no use in saying it should not be...
Sorrow removes a great deal of a person's shallowness, but it does not always make that person better. Suffering either gives me to myself or it destroys me. You cannot find or recieve yourself through success because you lose your head over pride. And you cannot recieve yourself through the monotony of your daily life, because you give in to complaining. The only way to find yourself is in the fires of sorrow... The fact is that it is true in the scriptures and in human experience. You can always recognize who has been through the fires of sorrow, and you know you can go to him in your moment of trouble and find that he has plenty of time for you. But if a person has not been through the fires of sorrow, he is apt to be contemptuous, having no respect or time for you, only turning you away. If you will recieve yourself in the fires of sorrow, God will make you noursihment for other people."
(taken from "My Utmost for His Highest" by Oswald Chambers, Day 25)

Hey guys,

For those of you who don't know, i'm currently in Asheville North Carolina. We had to leave asap because my grandpa was dying. It was an interesting trip down here... Our plane was delayed for 3 hours, so we got into Greenville SC around 12:45, rented a car, and drove the 40min drive to the nursing home.

I'm glad that I got to see him one more time... but at the same time I almost wish that my last memories of him could have been when he was healthy and happy. I really wasn't prepared to go into that room. Let's just say that I never want to see suffering like that again. I told him I loved him, and that was about all I could manage. They say that when you're in a coma the last sense to go is your hearing, so that makes me feel better.

We got to my aunt's house (where i'm currently staying) around 3:30am (2:30 my time), slept till noon the next day, and when we got up I drove my cousin and sister back to the nursing home. My mom told us that grandpa had died around noon that morning (the 7th). My mom and Aunt and Grandma had noticed that his gasps for breath were dimminishing to about twice a minute, and by pure "coincidence" a pastor who had been with another patient walked by the door. The 4 of them and some of the staff said a prayer over him, and as soon as they were finnished he was gone.

I'd like to sincerely thank all of you who have been/still are praying for my family and I. I think that if anything gives me hope it's that. I have peace today. I believe that God works miracles every day whether we know it or not.. And I definately see the circumstances of Grandpa's death to be a sign of a peaceful and (hopefully) heavenly passing. The funeral is on friday (and I have to sing at it *looks terrified*) I'm coming home sunday afternoon.

I miss you all! And please know that I love you. IM me or E-mail me, i'll be here awhile.... God Bless!

Random Thought...

It seems to me that poets must be some of the most easily distracted people on the planet. They are the only people who can sit in their kitchen typing a sonnet or poem about a lost love or a dear friend, look out their window and immediately begin writing a different poem about the tiny snowflakes that have slowly begun to fall. Does a normal person sit listening to a friend (or acquaintance) talk, and suddenly become more fascinated with the marbled colors in their eyes then what they are actually saying? As a rule you would never drive with a poet (that is if you value your life) when the sun is setting, a heavy snow is falling, or there is anything more interesting then the road outside of the car. *Looks around room… wow! I’ve never noticed that crack before… it kinda looks like a rabbit…oh! I’m sorry, I got distracted…