Found this on my sister's xanga site... Thought it was cute and middle-schoolish.. You can fill it out in the comments if you feel like it. =D

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain it.
7. Describe me in 1 word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Will you put this in your blog, so i can tell you how i feel about you?

Conversation between Kyla, Leah and I:

Me & Kyla: "Leah what are we gonna do when you're not our suite-mate next year?"
Leah: "Cease to exist!"
Us: "..."


What's up kids? I should be studying for my big history test tomorrow... but i'm not. I have a cheat-sheet with every term I will need on it... muah hahahaha... in any case. yup... well... I don't have anything to say so i'm gonna go.

Lacrosse!

I just ate 4 croissants... talk about too much fatty food... but boy were they good! mmmmmmm

So guess what I did yesterday? That's right, you guessed it! I DID attend my first ever lacrosse game... It was a lot of fun, and I learned a lot about the game... Games like that are so much fun when you're with friends! =D I wish I had pictures 'cause we were acting really crazy. Half-way through the game we started experimenting with french animal noises as cheers. good times... We also marvled at the fact that in lacrosse the players can wack the crap out of each other with their sticks.. and it's legal! haha.

I'm listening to Weathered by Creed. This is one of those cds that is really good musically but you need to put it away for awhile in order to fully appreciate it again.... and Jon just walked into my room, dumped a pile of candy on my desk and left... alrighty then.. lol. slightly strange.. and oddly normal simultaneously...

Well I need to do some homework... I love you kids! God Bless and i'll talk to ya later!

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New pictures... Showing the extensive amounts of free time that I waste. ;-)

To all the Nice Guys of the World.... Have a little hope!

And then the screen was pink... I don't want to hear any crap about how my blog is now pink *crosses arms and attempts to look serious*. eeeeee! I don't like pink very much but with a name like "disgruntled pink fuzzies" I had no choice.... Wittwer LOOK!! *jumps up and down like excited puppy* it's our band name!!! weeee!! the Disgruntled Pink Fuzzies WILL go public before long!! hehehehe.... sorry I haven't posted in awhile. Not too much going on here. I went home over Spring break. Had fun there with many of y'all... I'm still missing some of you!! *tear* For Easter I went to Isle of the Palms con mi familia. That was rocktastic.. woot!

So... random rant:
This is an interesting world we live in. I've had 3 conversations with 3 different guys today, all of whom were in love with a girl. The similarity? All 3 told me something along these lines "I love her so much. She has so much potential if she'd JUST CHANGE but she just doesn't see it yet. I still love her and I think she will..." Ok so it's not everyday that I hear the same story from 3 different guys.. Especially when they're all great, strong, loving guys... What's up with this? I just don't understand it...... These are all good Christian guys, and it sounds like the girls they are in love with aren't so strong & spiritual... Now don't get me wrong, I'm no prophet and I don't know what God has in store for people's lives. I just don't understand why these really good guys put up with someone who isn't on the same page? There are people out there who don't need a significant other to be happy or to know God's will for their lives... People who do only run into trouble... I think a lot of you get this.. but then why is it still happening?? I totally understand that you can't help who you fall in love with.. OoooHooo beleive me I know. lol... But at the same time... if you don't make each other happy when you're dating.. why on earth do you think that when you get married things about that person are going to change?? No no no no no... lol. Marriage is enough work without having extra baggage attached! Change happens without you... meaning that if someone is going to change they're not going to do it FOR you... People are happy just the way they are. You trying to change them = them not being happy... Now if they decide on their own they want to change then great... But stop waiting for it to happen... pleeeeeeaase.... So my message to you nice guys is... Have some hope for pete's sake! lol. Don't compromise what you need and deserve in a girl because you're in love... Compromise is good within a relationship, but changing big things in a person isn't usually gonna work... There are girls out there like you, I promise... Girls this goes for you too obviously... *sigh* I just needed to say that. in any case. I love you all dearly and I think about you all the time.

I can't get simon & garfunkle out of my head... This could make me crazy pretty quick! lol.

I am a rock.. I am an iiiiiiisland..
....
aaaah!! make them stop!

Well I love you all!
God Bless and have a great day!

She went to bed feeling betrayed, broken, empty, foolish, and in tears...

Realization... and some hope

Have you known a person who could come home from a night out with great friends and good fun and still feel like something is missing?
...
That's me tonight... And I'm not entirely sure why. =(

There is something missing for me. Although I am happy during the day while i'm out or talking to the people I love, I still come home and feel like something is missing. Only God knows what that could be. I wonder if I spend too much of my time trying to convince myself that things which are good but don't meet all my expectations are things that I can make into excellent things that blow my expectations away. That is, I suppose, what I want; my expectations to be blown away... That way I will only invest myself in things that will give back what is put into them. Lord it hurts me now to realize how much of myself I will never get back.

I like to settle for things that need work. That is because I like to be challenged in what I do, and also because I enjoy supporting others. I need work myself, so I should stop trying to focus on other things and work on myself. That is the only way I will be able to be self-sufficient and whole. God has been working on me for awhile now, but this just proves that I have a long way to go. I've broken myself, and now all I can do is give up and let myself be fixed.

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Gosh there really is so much joy in my life and all I seem to write about are my problems. hmmmm... Well i'll say this:

I am blessed in ways that never stop amazing me. I have wonderful friends... Absolutely the best friends on the planet. I love you all more than my own life. I know I don't tell you all often enough, but it's the truth. I have a wonderful family who always supports and encourages me in my endeavors. I probably don't tell you enough either but I love you guys very much. My school is another thing that absolutely astounds me. I honestly never knew a place so perfect existed for me. I can't count the times i've sat around and contemplated how I ended up at Calvin. I've never felt a stronger calling to a place in my life. I don't thank God enough for sending me here. I don't deserve this education, but for some reason He sent me the unbelievable blessing of attending this school. Our family is blessed enough to have a good financial situation. .. I don't really know what i've been complaining about lately. I have an amazing life. It's not perfect, but there are so many blessings in it...Honestly... i'm just speechless when I think about this stuff... What is even more precious than all of these things: God has given me forgiveness, hope, fulfillment, and unbelievable love... Well now I feel dumb. What on earth do I have to complain about??

New Group

I like this group. Their new cd sounds good. Here is a song off their album.

Take Me
(Hawk Nelson)

Can you hear me? Does anyone around me
Feel the way that I feel now?
'Cause from the window where I sometimes cry
I just want to see your face tonight
And I’m willing to lose everything I am

[Chorus]
'Cause I need you more than ever
I need your help to find where I’ve been going wrong so far

Take me under your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on 'cause it will be alright
You're not alone.

When your near me, I feel like I just found me
In the traces of the boy from yesterday
But in a world that is so black and white
I will take the steps to change my life
And I won’t be coming back to here again

I need your loving hand to guide me
Through the maze of all the things inside me
Then I’ll know that I’m alright

[Chorus]
'Cause I need you more than ever
I need your help to find where I’ll be going wrong so far

Take me under your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on 'cause it will be alright
Your not alone

Please help me get from worse to better
Before these tears soak through this lonely sweater
And let me know that I’m alright
I still have one strike of this match left
And I’m holding on to my last breath
And its getting a little dark around to see here

Take me under your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on 'cause it will be alright
Your not alone

Take me under your wing tonight
Make me so perfect in your eyes
Hold on it will be alright
Your not alone

And you’ll be here forever, forever you’ll stay
And you promised to love me, you’ll love me always
You’ll love me for always, you’ll love me for always
Always