I wrote this a long time ago when I was angry. I just don't want to hurt anymore. I am still praying it isn't true.


The Snow

The snow falls softly as my tears
Framing my face
All around me is white and cold
But inside I am red and hot.

Snowflakes dancing, laughing,
Whirling around the small girl who trudges
Through their spotless world

She pays them no mind
Their defense won't sway her from her mission.
Through the snow she sees the fortress
A wall built slowly over many years

It's majestic features are regal,
But it's angles are sharp
And it's barricade is solid ice

The determination shows in her eyes
But her hands are trembling

With all her might,
She throws herself at the wall
Tearing at it's smooth exterior.

Screaming, and struggling helplessly,
She falls to the ground in exhaustion
Sobbing, and praying

Suddenly, a shining light appears
At the top of the farthest tower.
A glimmer of hope

A figure appears
He never speaks
But stands aloof
Staring down at the tear stricken child

All around him is shining and silvery
The snowflakes sparkle in the moonlight
And swirl in intricate waves
Around the icy wizard


The girl is frightened and blinded
By the false light,
She looks into the wizard's face.

Behind frozen features and dry eyes
She sees the hot tears;
Frustration and anger like her own
Burning through the coldness

But as quickly as the ice thins,
The cold freezes it.
And the wizard is quickly locked inside his frozen fortress

The girl stands helplessly at the gate
Bewildered, cold and alone
The snowflakes dance around her and freeze on her cheeks.

"I'll not come again"
The girl is saying,
"I can't keep living in a land
Where spring never comes"

A single tear falls from her eye
And lands at the foot of the castle
In it's place, a single rose buds in the snow

The snowflakes dance and laugh around
The small girl who is slowly fading from
Their spotless world

Deep within his castle
The wizard watches the girl walk away
She will not return.

The cold becomes colder

But

A single tear falls from his lashes.
He does not wipe it away.
And for a brief moment,
He is mortal.

You know when sometimes you read or hear something that you haven't heard in a long time and it suddenly makes sense to you?

This song made me cry in 6th grade. It makes me cry more now.

Light In Your Eyes
(Blessid Union of Souls)

I can't remember the last time that we kissed goodbye
All our "I love you's" were just not enough to survive
Something your eyes never told me
But it's only now too plain to see
Brilliant disguise when you hold me
And I'm free
I've been thinking and here's what I've come to conclude
Sometimes the distance is more than two people can use
But how could I have known girl
It was time and not space you would need
Darling tonight I could hold you and you would know
But would you believe
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
There's a place in your heart where I used to be
Was I wrong to assume that you were waiting for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Cards and phone calls and photograph pictures of you
Constant reminder of all the things you get used to
Is there a chance in hell or heaven
That there's still something here to build on
Or do you just pick up the pieces after they fall
But after all
There's a light in your eyes that I used to see
And a song in the words that you spoke to me
Was I wrong to believe in your melody
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me
Should I keep on waiting or does love keep on fading away
Fading away
It's been a while since I've seen you so how have you been
Did you get my letter I wrote you, but I did not send
I tried to call your old number
But the voice that I heard on the phone
I recognized but she told me the number was wrong
There's a light in my eyes but it's too bright to see
And a pain in my heart where you used to be
Guess I was wrong to assume that you were waiting here for me
There's a light in your eyes
Did you leave that light burning for me