1. What are your current favorite lyrics from a song?
"Bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks.... "
*giggling*
2. What is your favorite term of endearment?
schnookums... or perhaps googly bear.
*more giggling*
3. Name one characteristic you despise in a person.
Unkindness
4. What do you think of your speaking voice?
Sometimes i'm too quiet... I don't really know. My voice could be extremely annoying for all I know. I'm sure its not very soothing or sexy... hmmm. I'll have to ask someone or something. haha
5. What do you order at Starbucks?
Coffee.... Beyond that I don't know names of drinks.
6. What makes a person sexy?
Wit a lot of times... ok, all the time. Being suggestive in clever ways.. don't ask me to explain that, its something Will demonstrates that no one else i've met does... lol. Guys who casually use big words in sentences... hehe. I am a complete nerd. One of the sexiest conversations i've ever had:
"We could play monopoly.... or cards.... or scrabble...."
hehehe.... oh heck yes.
Also... When guys dress nicely it can be very sexy.
7. What magazine do you always look forward to receiving in the mail?
I don't really read magazines....
8. Do you have any weird sleeping habits?
Does staying up all night count?
9. What celebrity has your dream hair?
for me? uuuuuh... Kate Hudson.
10. What is 1 item you will cherish forever?
The pretty music boxes i've gotten from my family.
11. How do you like your eggs?
Scrambled my way... hehe
12. Name one TV show you are embarassed to admit you watch.
The OC... sorry, its the truth... I also watch the Bachelor, and I don't know why i'm admitting that. I think I watch it because the girls on the show are mostly desperate... lol. Its a kinda sick pleasure to listen to these people's ideas on relationships...
13. What is your most boring class in school?
Well today was my first day, but I think it might be statistics and research design....
14. What is your favorite color to wear?
Blue.
15. Name one thing that is currently driving you crazy.
my study habits.
16. What is your favorite sports team?
uuuh... ?
17. What is your favorite time of day?
Late late at night.
18. If you could only wear clothing from one high-end designer for a year, who would it be?
um... Bebe maybe. That's not the highest of the high end though.
19. What is the last book you read and did you enjoy it?
I read "Miracles" by CS Lewis. It was fabulous.
20. What song do you know by heart?
ooh so many.
21.For a person you loved deeply, would you be willing to move far from home with little chance of seeing your friends and family again?
I think so, though i'd be pretty scared.
22. I think myspace is:
*sigh* sadly... I like it. It's helped me a lot with my music.
23. Who is your #1 celebrity crush?
mmm... sadly the 2 celebrity crushes I had happened to be in Brokeback Mountain together... And I just can't bring myself to be attracted to them anymore.. though I did like the movie. Johnny Depp is pretty hot in Pirates of the Carribbean... so I suppose he kinda counts.
24. What is one thing that annoys you about one of your friends?
not sure...
25. Do you keep a journal?
I write music.
26. What singer has your favorite voice to listen to?
It depends on my mood...
27. How I get my exercise:
Dancing, running, lifting weights, ice skating (previously but not so much now)
28. Name one film you think everyone should own.
Crash
29. Name your "best" and "worst" moments of the day.
Best: when I got to talk to Will.
Worst: buying books for class.
30. Have you ever lost respect for a person, and what caused you do to so?
yes. I'd rather not go into detail.
31. Love is: Unveiling the incredible beauty that God created in someone... It is humbling, selfless, kind, patient, unexplained, worth the compromise and sacrifice, beautiful, mysterious, and beyond words.
January 30, 2006
January 19, 2006
January 15, 2006
Bored bored...
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
One day I was walking down the street and I see this tiny little guy robbing an even smaller old lady. No one else is around, so I say to myself "self, you'd better save that old lady. I mean, how many opportunities are you gonna get where you can save the day because the bad guy is actually smaller than you? You'd better beat the crap out of that shrimpy little robber and pray to God that he doesn't have a gun." So after a moment of deliberation I took off after the guy, caught up, and tackled him. We wrestled around on the ground, fumbling for the purse (He was a little stronger than I had imagined). Then he pulled a knife on me and nearly cut two of my fingers off... To make a long story short, I eventually saved the day and won the hearts of old ladies everywhere, and aside from the love and respect of many, I also earned some scars on my hand where the knife cut me.
The whole story about my room mate slamming my hand in the door while we were being stupid is just a cover story...
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
um, well.. a ton of postcards that I bought in England and France, posters of Monet's paintings, one of Josh Groban, a Sex and the City poster, an OC poster (*cough* what?? it's not mine I swear!!), assorted band posters, some old fashioned posters from France... uh... pictures, cards, sticky tack, some kid's underwear, a lifesize cardboard model of Sean Connery... you know, what you would find in any college student's room.
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
well.. its small, silver, and shiny?
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
I don't listen to music... ok just kidding. I hate this question because it forces me to narrow my interests into a few labels or constrictive stereotyped categories, and I refuse... a lot of indie music.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
I think it was around 12:30am on the 24th of December.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
sex... HAHA just kidding. =P
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Well, I miss Will, and my friends and family. I also miss playing piano... and summer, definately summer.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION/S?
My music/writings. Which would mean that my computer and journals are my most prized possessions... Also my pictures.
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
I'm not sure. Maybe.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
yes at times.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
myself actually.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME(S)?
I'm not sure. I like to try new things. Lavender perfumes (when you find the right maker) can be my favorite.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
its funny 'cause when I used to think about looks I'd prefer a darker complexion with blue eyes. However, I have developed a strong attraction to blondes... I always prefer blue or green eyes. Truly, looks aren't what I care about at all.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING TO SOMEONE?
I'd never propose. It's my job to decide if you're worthy or not. hehehe. =P.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
coffee... red bull tastes like liquified sweet tarts. For that amount of money I can crush up my own and add a little water...
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
um.. meat. lol.
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Pizza. it sounds too good.
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
uh.. I have no idea.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
Life? Salvation? Love? all of the above.
22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
I love the way our society uses this phrase to show how uncomfortable we are with saying that we're attracted to someone.
Yes, of course I do. hehe.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Why do you want to know, and who is asking? =D
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
mmmmm.... *squirms in chair* I wish I didn't have one.. probably Ann Taylor Loft... which, I suppose, isn't a brand but a store.
25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I love my car and it loves me!
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
At home I have 3 cats and a dog and a bunch of guppies who are frantically trying to repopulate the world's guppy population... I also have a monster plant whose name is Richard. He controls the population by eating stupid people who mistake him for an ordinary houseplant. hehehe. Its called natural selection.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
HAHAHA. Why don't you meet my plant Richard? He's a really interesting plant. Just lean in a little closer...
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Yep. You state this like you think the feeling aspect of love is controlable.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Words mean nothing without actions to back them up.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
27
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Where do red heads fall in this mix? Brunettes I suppose. With the exception of Will, Laura, and Ben. lol.
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST?
Will's when he is in the country. haha.
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
when people ignorantly believe something without knowing the facts behind it, or attack other peoples arguments without actually listening to them, or fight about concepts that really aren't that important in the grand scheme of life... Basically stubborn, argumentative, ignorant people. Why can't we demonstrate love to each other even if we have different opinions? Show a little respect people.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yes. England, France, Canada.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Chocolate, Will, and thats all I'll admit on the internet. lol.
37. FIRST JOB?
University of Nebraska Medical Center.
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yeah 'cause we were such cool kids in middle school.
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
reading email
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
nothing?
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I have too much free time and/or no life currently?
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
um... my music probably.
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
I wouldn't care very much?
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
I just had it. I want nothing. hehe.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
2.5
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
I don't think so. Though I was nearly named "Melanie" before my parents learned that it meant "from the dark places"...
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Sometimes, just for fun.
48. WHAT DID YOU DO THIS MORNING?
I slept till noon!!! and it was glorious!
49. WHAT DID YOU LAST EAT?
Way more candy then I should have eaten this late at night. I blame the peer pressure and the fact that it was sitting RIGHT THERE in front of me.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
meh... it could improve.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Roast Beef, and then turkey.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
procrastination
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
98 Degrees
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes? I think so?
55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Who knows. If I have I don't remember it.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Only to a certain degree.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I cry. Seriously, I hardly get mad, I just cry...
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
College, and with Will?
59. IF YOU HAD A MILLION DOLLARS WHAT WOULD YOU BUY FIRST?
A house. Then i'd tour the world and write about it!
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
um... probably bunny and kitty. Original names, I know. I was a quick one.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
10? right? yeah... I had to count in my head... *shakes fist at math*
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
no... never ever... ;-)
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
yes but I lived.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Do you know my Will? Then you know what I look for. hehehe.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
my last name, 'the Lorax' (I speak for the trees), Kat, or my favorite: "hey..."
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Cheesecake I think.
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLOR(S)?
Blue and green.
73. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Will and Laura.
74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
none. they were taken from me.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
They can if they want to...
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
The silence of my soul. hehe...
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Jones Cream Soda! A truly beautiful creation.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
*looks at call history* (yes I actually have time to do that and its sad) Ben called me last night.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Eyes.
80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
oh man.... so many!
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Hate itself, and unkindness.
82. FAVORITE DRINK(S)?
Hot chocolate (with milk), and since i'm swearing off pop for awhile, water. hehe.
83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
*shrugs* does it matter? no.
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
I suppose figure skating because I do it.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
um... Auburn, as Will says.
86. EYE COLOR?
Blue (mostly).
87. HEIGHT?
5'1'.5" hehehe.
88. SIBLINGS?
one younger sister, Anna, and a cousin who counts as a brother, Michael.
89. FAVORITE MONTH?
um... December or July?
90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
I think so, I don't remember.
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Love Actually, a few hours ago.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
hmmm.. not sure.
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
by nature, yes. But i've asked a guy on a date before. I wouldn't ask a guy to commit to me though. He has to do that.
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer probably, but it depends.
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Kisses?
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Definately relationships.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
I bought tennis shoes today 'cause I have knee problems and the old pair I had made my knees swell when I ran.
98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
i'm going to assume everyone else but me has a life. hehe.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Shadowlands by C.S. Lewis, and i'm deciding on another one to start.
100. ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
You want me to speak for other people? hehehe. =P
Response to Nilo:
I'm sorry you're trapped by the duties of parenting! On the plus side, renting movies is much less expensive and you get things like deleted scenes... right, well, maybe that helps... lol (probably not).
Memoirs of a Geisha was very good, though I think some would call the story line miraculous and idealistic.. I may secretly be a miraculous idealist so I won't talk... lol. The film-making itself is beautiful, very classic and beautiful. I really liked it and I would reccomend it. Will is taking a class in India, so I won't get to see him or talk to him very often until Febuary. Never-the-less, our relationship is wonderful and the distance hasn't been a problem! Thank God for that! I'm very lucky and very grateful...
Take care and God bless!!
One day I was walking down the street and I see this tiny little guy robbing an even smaller old lady. No one else is around, so I say to myself "self, you'd better save that old lady. I mean, how many opportunities are you gonna get where you can save the day because the bad guy is actually smaller than you? You'd better beat the crap out of that shrimpy little robber and pray to God that he doesn't have a gun." So after a moment of deliberation I took off after the guy, caught up, and tackled him. We wrestled around on the ground, fumbling for the purse (He was a little stronger than I had imagined). Then he pulled a knife on me and nearly cut two of my fingers off... To make a long story short, I eventually saved the day and won the hearts of old ladies everywhere, and aside from the love and respect of many, I also earned some scars on my hand where the knife cut me.
The whole story about my room mate slamming my hand in the door while we were being stupid is just a cover story...
2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
um, well.. a ton of postcards that I bought in England and France, posters of Monet's paintings, one of Josh Groban, a Sex and the City poster, an OC poster (*cough* what?? it's not mine I swear!!), assorted band posters, some old fashioned posters from France... uh... pictures, cards, sticky tack, some kid's underwear, a lifesize cardboard model of Sean Connery... you know, what you would find in any college student's room.
3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
well.. its small, silver, and shiny?
4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
I don't listen to music... ok just kidding. I hate this question because it forces me to narrow my interests into a few labels or constrictive stereotyped categories, and I refuse... a lot of indie music.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
I think it was around 12:30am on the 24th of December.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
sex... HAHA just kidding. =P
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Well, I miss Will, and my friends and family. I also miss playing piano... and summer, definately summer.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION/S?
My music/writings. Which would mean that my computer and journals are my most prized possessions... Also my pictures.
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
I'm not sure. Maybe.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
yes at times.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
myself actually.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME(S)?
I'm not sure. I like to try new things. Lavender perfumes (when you find the right maker) can be my favorite.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
its funny 'cause when I used to think about looks I'd prefer a darker complexion with blue eyes. However, I have developed a strong attraction to blondes... I always prefer blue or green eyes. Truly, looks aren't what I care about at all.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING TO SOMEONE?
I'd never propose. It's my job to decide if you're worthy or not. hehehe. =P.
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
coffee... red bull tastes like liquified sweet tarts. For that amount of money I can crush up my own and add a little water...
17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
um.. meat. lol.
18. IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Pizza. it sounds too good.
19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
uh.. I have no idea.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
Life? Salvation? Love? all of the above.
22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
I love the way our society uses this phrase to show how uncomfortable we are with saying that we're attracted to someone.
Yes, of course I do. hehe.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
Why do you want to know, and who is asking? =D
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
mmmmm.... *squirms in chair* I wish I didn't have one.. probably Ann Taylor Loft... which, I suppose, isn't a brand but a store.
25. WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
I love my car and it loves me!
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
At home I have 3 cats and a dog and a bunch of guppies who are frantically trying to repopulate the world's guppy population... I also have a monster plant whose name is Richard. He controls the population by eating stupid people who mistake him for an ordinary houseplant. hehehe. Its called natural selection.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT?
HAHAHA. Why don't you meet my plant Richard? He's a really interesting plant. Just lean in a little closer...
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Yep. You state this like you think the feeling aspect of love is controlable.
29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
Words mean nothing without actions to back them up.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED:
27
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Where do red heads fall in this mix? Brunettes I suppose. With the exception of Will, Laura, and Ben. lol.
32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL MOST?
Will's when he is in the country. haha.
33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
when people ignorantly believe something without knowing the facts behind it, or attack other peoples arguments without actually listening to them, or fight about concepts that really aren't that important in the grand scheme of life... Basically stubborn, argumentative, ignorant people. Why can't we demonstrate love to each other even if we have different opinions? Show a little respect people.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Yes. England, France, Canada.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Chocolate, Will, and thats all I'll admit on the internet. lol.
37. FIRST JOB?
University of Nebraska Medical Center.
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yeah 'cause we were such cool kids in middle school.
39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS?
reading email
40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
nothing?
41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
I have too much free time and/or no life currently?
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
um... my music probably.
43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
I wouldn't care very much?
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
I just had it. I want nothing. hehe.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
2.5
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
I don't think so. Though I was nearly named "Melanie" before my parents learned that it meant "from the dark places"...
47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Sometimes, just for fun.
48. WHAT DID YOU DO THIS MORNING?
I slept till noon!!! and it was glorious!
49. WHAT DID YOU LAST EAT?
Way more candy then I should have eaten this late at night. I blame the peer pressure and the fact that it was sitting RIGHT THERE in front of me.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
meh... it could improve.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Roast Beef, and then turkey.
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
procrastination
53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
98 Degrees
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes? I think so?
55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Who knows. If I have I don't remember it.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Only to a certain degree.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I cry. Seriously, I hardly get mad, I just cry...
58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
College, and with Will?
59. IF YOU HAD A MILLION DOLLARS WHAT WOULD YOU BUY FIRST?
A house. Then i'd tour the world and write about it!
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
um... probably bunny and kitty. Original names, I know. I was a quick one.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
10? right? yeah... I had to count in my head... *shakes fist at math*
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
no... never ever... ;-)
64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
yes but I lived.
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Do you know my Will? Then you know what I look for. hehehe.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
my last name, 'the Lorax' (I speak for the trees), Kat, or my favorite: "hey..."
70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Cheesecake I think.
72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLOR(S)?
Blue and green.
73. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Will and Laura.
74. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
none. they were taken from me.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
They can if they want to...
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
The silence of my soul. hehe...
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Jones Cream Soda! A truly beautiful creation.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
*looks at call history* (yes I actually have time to do that and its sad) Ben called me last night.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Eyes.
80. FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
oh man.... so many!
81. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Hate itself, and unkindness.
82. FAVORITE DRINK(S)?
Hot chocolate (with milk), and since i'm swearing off pop for awhile, water. hehe.
83. FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN:
*shrugs* does it matter? no.
84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
I suppose figure skating because I do it.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
um... Auburn, as Will says.
86. EYE COLOR?
Blue (mostly).
87. HEIGHT?
5'1'.5" hehehe.
88. SIBLINGS?
one younger sister, Anna, and a cousin who counts as a brother, Michael.
89. FAVORITE MONTH?
um... December or July?
90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
I think so, I don't remember.
91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Love Actually, a few hours ago.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
hmmm.. not sure.
93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
by nature, yes. But i've asked a guy on a date before. I wouldn't ask a guy to commit to me though. He has to do that.
94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Summer probably, but it depends.
95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Kisses?
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Definately relationships.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
I bought tennis shoes today 'cause I have knee problems and the old pair I had made my knees swell when I ran.
98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
i'm going to assume everyone else but me has a life. hehe.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Shadowlands by C.S. Lewis, and i'm deciding on another one to start.
100. ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU?
You want me to speak for other people? hehehe. =P
Response to Nilo:
I'm sorry you're trapped by the duties of parenting! On the plus side, renting movies is much less expensive and you get things like deleted scenes... right, well, maybe that helps... lol (probably not).
Memoirs of a Geisha was very good, though I think some would call the story line miraculous and idealistic.. I may secretly be a miraculous idealist so I won't talk... lol. The film-making itself is beautiful, very classic and beautiful. I really liked it and I would reccomend it. Will is taking a class in India, so I won't get to see him or talk to him very often until Febuary. Never-the-less, our relationship is wonderful and the distance hasn't been a problem! Thank God for that! I'm very lucky and very grateful...
Take care and God bless!!
January 06, 2006
wait, what?
I'm on a Maroon 5 kick for some reason... What is it about their songs that is so sexy??
It's really frickin hard to distract yourself when your boyfriend is in India. haha. I am such a man sometimes.... Luckily i'm a good kid. =D
Today I went to a lecture done by the author of pope John Paul II's biography. It was a really good talk. And right now I just want to rock out to Maroon 5 and make this a really short post. Not that I don't love you all, because I do. I'll write more later when there is more to write. And tonight, Memoirs of a Geisha (again) with friends here! Sorry for this ADD post.
I miss you Will.
Bye all!
It's really frickin hard to distract yourself when your boyfriend is in India. haha. I am such a man sometimes.... Luckily i'm a good kid. =D
Today I went to a lecture done by the author of pope John Paul II's biography. It was a really good talk. And right now I just want to rock out to Maroon 5 and make this a really short post. Not that I don't love you all, because I do. I'll write more later when there is more to write. And tonight, Memoirs of a Geisha (again) with friends here! Sorry for this ADD post.
I miss you Will.
Bye all!
January 05, 2006
Moo?
Hello all,
Happy holidays to all and late birthday to me! Yes, I am another year older (wiser is debatable). Its strange to imagine that my teenage years have run out and now adulthood stands staring me in the face. At the moment I still feel like a deer caught in the headlights. Lately i've found myself questioning the things I do more seriously, and rethinking things like social constructs and obligations. College, for example, is a social institution. I love college and the learning that goes on here. I also understand that the structure of colleges and universities functions to ensure stability and proficiency in learning skills and knowledge for future careers. However, many people would agree that skills and career preparation shouldn't be the only purpose of college. Sometimes I wish I could just audit classes for my entire life. I'd use what I learned as fuel for everything else I want to do. My mom tells me that this is because i'm "an artist". Not that I consider myself exceptional at the things I aspire to. Perhaps i'm just lazy. I know people who love to keep a schedule and channel a lot of their energy into organizing time. This brings them satisfaction and fulfillment because they get a lot accomplished. Though I am perfectly capable of being organized, it brings me little satisfaction because it hinders me from being creative. In the past I haven't let this bother me too much, but lately it's caused me to question everything i'm doing in life.
I want to go to college. I love learning and I love being stretched intelectually. I also love writing music. Both of these things I would like to pursue as far as I can because I want to know what capacity I have for them. Leaving school here to pursue music is out of the question because I am afraid... of.... myself I suppose. What if I turned out to be wrong and I failed, or I didn't like the success I found? Adversely, what if I kept going in school and eventually became a councilor (as I really want to). It may be too late to pursue anything in music at that point. I don't think i've ever been truly unhappy when considering my options before, but right now i'm very confused. I need to find a way to balance these things because I can't give up either one. Unfortunately while i'm here in school I have very little access to a piano and very limited time to play anyway. There is no privacy in which to play. When i'm home I have more time but it is often taken up by friends and family (which is a great blessing otherwise). I had hoped to get more accomplished over break but our house was occupied for most of the day by workmen (and I understand this too, i'm not mad about it), and the evenings were generally scheduled with friends or family (Break was wonderful by the way!). So it's not that i'm unhappy with life, i'm just confused about what I want and how to get it. But anyways....
*sigh* I'm going to stop whining now. The religion class i'm taking is a lot of fun. It strays far from orthodox conversation (or at least from conservative Christian conversations) about sex and birth. The ideas aren't extremely un-orthodox, but the information we cover is fantastic. Actually, come to think of it, we haven't really discussed any "ideas" about sex and birth, just how the ancients percieved the acts. Our prof encourages us to speak our minds and makes remarks on some unorthodox subjects that you wouldn't normally expect a religion prof to make blatantly. I came late to the first session because my flight out of Chicago the night before was cancelled and I was forced to spend the night there and fly out in the morning(rolls eyes). So anyways, I walked in late to my class right as the professor was telling us how the course discussions would go. My timing was really akward. "For purposes of neutrality and valuable conversation we are going to assume that everyone and no one in this class has had sex with an animal." At that I knew I was in the right place... wait, that sounded terrible... ur.. nevermind. Its good to be a religion major. It was so hard to stop myself from making beastiality jokes for the rest of the day.... hehehe.
Well on that note.. i'm gonna go...
Take care and God Bless!
Happy holidays to all and late birthday to me! Yes, I am another year older (wiser is debatable). Its strange to imagine that my teenage years have run out and now adulthood stands staring me in the face. At the moment I still feel like a deer caught in the headlights. Lately i've found myself questioning the things I do more seriously, and rethinking things like social constructs and obligations. College, for example, is a social institution. I love college and the learning that goes on here. I also understand that the structure of colleges and universities functions to ensure stability and proficiency in learning skills and knowledge for future careers. However, many people would agree that skills and career preparation shouldn't be the only purpose of college. Sometimes I wish I could just audit classes for my entire life. I'd use what I learned as fuel for everything else I want to do. My mom tells me that this is because i'm "an artist". Not that I consider myself exceptional at the things I aspire to. Perhaps i'm just lazy. I know people who love to keep a schedule and channel a lot of their energy into organizing time. This brings them satisfaction and fulfillment because they get a lot accomplished. Though I am perfectly capable of being organized, it brings me little satisfaction because it hinders me from being creative. In the past I haven't let this bother me too much, but lately it's caused me to question everything i'm doing in life.
I want to go to college. I love learning and I love being stretched intelectually. I also love writing music. Both of these things I would like to pursue as far as I can because I want to know what capacity I have for them. Leaving school here to pursue music is out of the question because I am afraid... of.... myself I suppose. What if I turned out to be wrong and I failed, or I didn't like the success I found? Adversely, what if I kept going in school and eventually became a councilor (as I really want to). It may be too late to pursue anything in music at that point. I don't think i've ever been truly unhappy when considering my options before, but right now i'm very confused. I need to find a way to balance these things because I can't give up either one. Unfortunately while i'm here in school I have very little access to a piano and very limited time to play anyway. There is no privacy in which to play. When i'm home I have more time but it is often taken up by friends and family (which is a great blessing otherwise). I had hoped to get more accomplished over break but our house was occupied for most of the day by workmen (and I understand this too, i'm not mad about it), and the evenings were generally scheduled with friends or family (Break was wonderful by the way!). So it's not that i'm unhappy with life, i'm just confused about what I want and how to get it. But anyways....
*sigh* I'm going to stop whining now. The religion class i'm taking is a lot of fun. It strays far from orthodox conversation (or at least from conservative Christian conversations) about sex and birth. The ideas aren't extremely un-orthodox, but the information we cover is fantastic. Actually, come to think of it, we haven't really discussed any "ideas" about sex and birth, just how the ancients percieved the acts. Our prof encourages us to speak our minds and makes remarks on some unorthodox subjects that you wouldn't normally expect a religion prof to make blatantly. I came late to the first session because my flight out of Chicago the night before was cancelled and I was forced to spend the night there and fly out in the morning(rolls eyes). So anyways, I walked in late to my class right as the professor was telling us how the course discussions would go. My timing was really akward. "For purposes of neutrality and valuable conversation we are going to assume that everyone and no one in this class has had sex with an animal." At that I knew I was in the right place... wait, that sounded terrible... ur.. nevermind. Its good to be a religion major. It was so hard to stop myself from making beastiality jokes for the rest of the day.... hehehe.
Well on that note.. i'm gonna go...
Take care and God Bless!
December 12, 2005
Gonna be sick...
Honestly, I think i'm going to be sick.
For a good while now i've been uploading pictures onto a webpage so that my family & friends can have a look into my life here in college. Its worked out great for a long time, and I still put pictures up there for this blog and for others. Lately though, there has been this outpouring of porn onto this site. I'm sure its always been there and i'm just now noticing it (i'm really not that naive). The thing that makes me sick is that these people keep sending me invitations to become friends with them, and when I look at their profile all this ameatur porn comes up. And it keeps getting worse. Today there was a page with an obese ugly woman on it in very little clothing (not porn but just... eew...). She was posing in these photos, and men would leave comments about the pictures... Really gross comments. If you went and looked at these men's profiles, most of them were married (and their wives weren't by any means ugly) with pictures of their families on their webpages. Now i'm not floored by all this. A long time ago I learned just exactly how big and popular porn is. The numbers are something like 1 in 3 or 4 are addicted (men that is) have a serious problem with it. So generally, though its really painful to watch, i'm sympathetic because I see the trend. That web page though... *shivers*.. I just don't get. The pictures made me sick already, but realizing that the guys who were leaving those comments were my friends and mentors.... Just makes me really hurt and angry. I want to tell every one of them that they're fake and I never should have looked up to them... Of course I'd never manage to say all that. I'd end up sobbing... This is a little strange for me, I know, I don't usually get this way.
People have told me that this stuff isn't personal. It's not about me. I don't buy that at all. It is about me. Its telling me that i'm not good enough. Its not good enough just to be the person I am and hold a guy's attention. They take something meant to be beautiful and selfless and make it into a self-absorbed addiction. More more more more. What the hell? It just makes me so frustrated. Maybe it's because its not something I can help. Its not about me. Maybe thats it. It somehow implies that I have failed; that love fails. These people (both the viewers and the publishers) go against what I stand for, and destroy the things I value and work so hard to uphold. They destroy people and they destroy relationships.
I really haven't been angry in a long time, but today i'm angry about this.
I'm sorry if this is something you struggle with. I'm not here to make you feel worse about something you already regret, and I support you in your efforts. If you are reading this and don't understand what i'm saying or why i'm upset, I'm sorry for your confusion. But if you can sit there and say to yourself that porn is in no way related to love then i'm going to disagree with you. Is sex related to love? yes. Its not casual and impersonal, its about loving another person. If you're telling someone you love them and then getting ahold of porn for your own purposes, then you'd better re-examine your first statement.
*sigh* alright. Well i'm going to stop raving for now. talk to you soon!
Laura
For a good while now i've been uploading pictures onto a webpage so that my family & friends can have a look into my life here in college. Its worked out great for a long time, and I still put pictures up there for this blog and for others. Lately though, there has been this outpouring of porn onto this site. I'm sure its always been there and i'm just now noticing it (i'm really not that naive). The thing that makes me sick is that these people keep sending me invitations to become friends with them, and when I look at their profile all this ameatur porn comes up. And it keeps getting worse. Today there was a page with an obese ugly woman on it in very little clothing (not porn but just... eew...). She was posing in these photos, and men would leave comments about the pictures... Really gross comments. If you went and looked at these men's profiles, most of them were married (and their wives weren't by any means ugly) with pictures of their families on their webpages. Now i'm not floored by all this. A long time ago I learned just exactly how big and popular porn is. The numbers are something like 1 in 3 or 4 are addicted (men that is) have a serious problem with it. So generally, though its really painful to watch, i'm sympathetic because I see the trend. That web page though... *shivers*.. I just don't get. The pictures made me sick already, but realizing that the guys who were leaving those comments were my friends and mentors.... Just makes me really hurt and angry. I want to tell every one of them that they're fake and I never should have looked up to them... Of course I'd never manage to say all that. I'd end up sobbing... This is a little strange for me, I know, I don't usually get this way.
People have told me that this stuff isn't personal. It's not about me. I don't buy that at all. It is about me. Its telling me that i'm not good enough. Its not good enough just to be the person I am and hold a guy's attention. They take something meant to be beautiful and selfless and make it into a self-absorbed addiction. More more more more. What the hell? It just makes me so frustrated. Maybe it's because its not something I can help. Its not about me. Maybe thats it. It somehow implies that I have failed; that love fails. These people (both the viewers and the publishers) go against what I stand for, and destroy the things I value and work so hard to uphold. They destroy people and they destroy relationships.
I really haven't been angry in a long time, but today i'm angry about this.
I'm sorry if this is something you struggle with. I'm not here to make you feel worse about something you already regret, and I support you in your efforts. If you are reading this and don't understand what i'm saying or why i'm upset, I'm sorry for your confusion. But if you can sit there and say to yourself that porn is in no way related to love then i'm going to disagree with you. Is sex related to love? yes. Its not casual and impersonal, its about loving another person. If you're telling someone you love them and then getting ahold of porn for your own purposes, then you'd better re-examine your first statement.
*sigh* alright. Well i'm going to stop raving for now. talk to you soon!
Laura
December 11, 2005
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