Slipping Away

Sometimes
I want to slip away
Beneath the cracks of the earth
Where no one can find me.
Where I can peacefully rest
Surrounded by the warm earth
Looking up at the world.

I want to fast foreward
To happier days
Where the sun shines
And the days aren't so cold and lonely
I want to be held closely
In a loved one's arms
To be motivated to succeed
And to have the wisdom and knowledge
That I so desperately desire.

Will I learn this time?
Am I hopelessly doomed to failure
By my tragic flaws?
Will I ever live up to
The potential
That I know God has given me?

I don't know.
But I do know
That this cycle must be
Short lived.
Or else I will eventually
Slip away
Into the cracks of the earth
And be forgotten.